Gabi Clayton's Guestbook #52 - From 5/18/04 to 7/26/04
Note: This guestbook reads from the bottom of the page up. -- Gabi
Monday, July 26, 2004 4:51:47 PM |
Name: |
Carlos |
E-Mail: |
freed_01@yahoo.com |
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Location: |
Los Angeles CA |
Comments: |
I read the
story of your son Bill after finding a link on another
website. It saddened my day and felt for him and his
friend Sam tremendously. I felt for his mother and his
family that they went through these events of hatred
from the time he was raped by that man. I, however, was
saddened some more when I discovered the links and
comments of the Iraq War and our president, George W.
Bush. Were these the types of comments we should teach
our children? Teach Bill? This is the lack of respect
for the leadership that the leftist sector of the U.S.
“society” continues to outpour daily? If Bill lived
in Iraq, he would certainly been tortured and murdered
under Hussein’s government. The new government,
graciously thankful to the U.S. invasion, must be
“taught” of tolerances in the world today. Of
course, that may be difficult in the Middle East as it
continues to be in the U.S. Countries like Cuba and
North Korea continues to torture and murder the gay
population.
A memory to a great boy like Bill has been tarnished by
his mother with the leftist, anti-war rhetoric on the
website. The site should maintain its initial ideals of
tolerance against sexual orientation, racist, religions,
sexist, etc. issues. As a bisexual father of Hispanic
origin, I totally understand the tolerance issues to be
addressed. I do not understand the political overtones
instilled on the site especially by his mother.
Thank God for the United States that we can state our
opinion and sometimes pay the consequences but this is
not true in Iraq, Cuba, China, etc. etc. etc.
From a most distressed concerned bisexual man who is
also a father, Hispanic, God-fearing religious
Christian, politically moderate and supportive of the
country in foreign lands.
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From Gabi
My answer in part to Carlos (above):
I
think we have something on the Safe School Coalition website that
speaks to some of what you are concerned with and objecting to on
my site. At http://www.safeschoolscoalition.org/LGBTAntiWar.pdf in
pdf format. It is "Is Opposing the War An LGBT Issue?"
and in part it says:
As Audre Lorde, the noted
poet, activist, and writer who was both Black and lesbian, said,
"There is no such thing as a single-issue struggle because
we do not live single-issue lives."
Race, gender, culture,
class, age, and the complex interrelationships of these factors
are central to our LGBT experience and analysis of the impacts
of the "War on Terror" here and abroad. While all of
us in the LGBT movement are affected by the " War on
Terror," people of color, immigrants and refugees , women,
children and youth, and poor people — including LGBT people
— disproportionately bear the burden of war-related
repression, violence, and harm. These are the same groups in the
United States who already suffer the multiple harms of domestic
and sexual violence, hate violence, poverty, and dispossession.
You
may want to read the rest for more. It was created by LGBT
Program, Community Relations Unit of the American Friends Service
Committee http://www.afsc.org/lgbt/peace
in partnership with the National Youth Advocacy Coalition
NYAC www.nyacyouth.org
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Wednesday, July 21, 2004 7:50:14 PM |
Name: |
lee prestley |
E-Mail: |
prestley321 |
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Location: |
united kingdom
, manchester |
Comments: |
read the story
it overwelmed me to think in a so called civilised world
that kind of hate for a fellow human still excistes HOPE
BILL HAS FOUND PEACE WITH HIS MAKER , LEE |
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Tuesday, July 20, 2004 9:16:13 PM |
Name: |
Luis |
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Location: |
California |
Comments: |
I'm sad about
what happened to your son. I'm 16 and i'm gay. I started
realizing it when i was in middle school and i had never
told anyone until this year when i told a good friend at
school. She was very supportive and i thank her for
that. Since then i've only told my two older sisters. At
first they asked if i was joking, but i told them i
wasn't. One said it was okay and the other one had
tears. I asked her why she was crying and she said she
wasn't crying it was just that she was still in some
denial. I haven't got the courage to tell my parents or
the rest of my family. i think i will though, and i
think my parents will understand. I too am afraid of
what people might think. i am afraid that i might fall
victim to a similar crime. It is sad to think we live in
such a hateful world. I hope no one will have to go
through the same thing. I wish you and your family the
best of luck.
(P.S. After reading about the word "Schwul" i
felt that in every culture there is always a demeaning
term for homosexuals, lesbians, and bisexuals. I speak
Spanish and the equivalent to the term "schwul"
is "joto" (pronounced Hoh toh) and an even
worse word, "Maricón" which is equal to the
word, "Fag" or "faggot."
I don't like it when people discriminate and use these
words against homosexuals because i feel discriminated
against too. I hope your family will prevail and really
hope there will be an end to these terrible crimes.
Sincerely,
Luis
"Ama a tu hermano y trata a otros cómo tú quieres
hacer tratado."
(Love your brother and treat others the way you want to
be treated.) |
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Monday, July 19, 2004 12:30:35 AM |
Name: |
tasha williams |
E-Mail: |
ajvillereppingul@aol.com |
Homepage: |
http://ajvillereppingul@aol.com |
Location: |
maryland |
Comments: |
well i feel
like you should do u ,but i've always been told that
homosexuality is wrong but i am a bisexual too...so just
do u have fun wit' your life... |
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Sunday, July 18, 2004 2:15:04 PM |
Name: |
nathanbr@frxglobal.com |
E-Mail: |
nathanbr@frxglobal.com |
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Location: |
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Comments: |
Gabi--
I am sorry for the loss of your son. Like most leftists,
you're confused about the relationship of personal
choice and tolerance.
Tolerance doesnt come from a box, it must be learned.
Just as the hatefilled perpetrators attacked your son,
we were all attacked on 9/11 -- for being who we are. We
must forebear those who hate up to a point, and try to
steer them rightly. When we cannot, and they still
express hate, they must understand the consequence of
their action is to be reviled in return. It is the only
way to learn.
People will not learn tolerance for gays from reading
your site, they might think more about it though. They
will only truely learn when they meet gays and discover
they are normal and decent. If still they attack, then
that is why we have prisons.
Do you see that the relations of countries are the same
way?
Look closer atthe anti-war sites you are liked to, and
you will see they have much more in common with those
who attacked you r son than with the toleraters.
God bless.
Nathan Branson |
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Friday, July 16, 2004 1:34:03 PM |
Name: |
Alex |
E-Mail: |
alex@rideas.co.uk |
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Location: |
UK |
Comments: |
A truely
tragic loss. My heart goes out to you.
I hope one day a world will exist where people won't be
attacked or be the victim of hate based simply upon who
they are, by people who don't even know them, and by
people who don't understand what human sexuality is.
As a 19 y/o gay in the UK, I can say that things are
getting better but there's still a long way to go.
It's a shame as some comments in this guestbook show
that ignorance (and even hate) is still rife.
Take care. |
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Monday, July 12, 2004 11:36:15 PM |
Name: |
Kyle |
E-Mail: |
egavasslave@aol.com |
Homepage: |
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Location: |
CT |
Comments: |
Your son's
story has touched me deeply and I am extremely sorry for
your loss. It is my deepest wish for the future that
children should be raised without hate and fear, that
people will come to understand one another and become
allies, rather than enemies assaulting each other
because of their differences. I come from a school in CT
where homophobia is on the rise and people fear that
which cannot be explained. Last year we started our
schools first Gay-Straight Alliance to help people
understand what life is like for those that are gay,
bisexual and transgender. Your son's story has inspired
me to work harder this upcoming year when I take over as
the leader of our GSA. It is my hope along with that of
my fellow members that we can help make the world a
better place, starting with our school, one step at a
time.
My heart goes out to you,
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Monday, July 12, 2004 12:44:08 PM |
Name: |
Joan Mathews |
E-Mail: |
joanita@bellsouth.net |
Homepage: |
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Location: |
Davie Fl |
Comments: |
I have read
your story about your son.My heart goes out to you. You
are such a strong person. The strength of you and your
family was such a help for your son. The work you are
doing now is so vital and so necessary. As you say, the
hate grows with silence. but I have a feeling of anger
and hate for the verbal abuse and hateful actions of
many homophobics. They are so in the dark. They must be
educated. Their minds have been brainwashed. It is true
that many people hide their sexual orientation and they
live a life of pretence of being straight-- by getting
married etc. Probably some of these people even show
hate toward people who are not straight. I think that
there are many people in this world who are very
insecure themselves and they have to find other people
to put down so that they can feel superior. My grandson
came out last year. He is in his first year of college
now. I am very worried about him. thank you for this web
site I will be visiting it often. Sincerely Joan Mathews |
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Sunday, July 11, 2004 7:36:47 PM |
Name: |
William Turner |
E-Mail: |
williamdturner@yahoo.com |
Homepage: |
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Location: |
Nashville
Tennessee |
Comments: |
I read your
story and it really just hit home. I had a friend that
went through a very simalir experince, and she also
commited suicide. I was reading some of the entries in
your guest book, and see that the world still has some
uneducated, and just plain stupid people. Sad to say I
know, but so true. I am gay, and the thing people have
to relieze, is that this life style is not a chioce,
this is the way i was born, and the way i will die. Who
in their right mind, choose to live a life style of such
prejudice? I just wanted you to know, that you are in my
thoughts as well as your son. |
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Sunday, July 11, 2004 12:53:20 AM |
Name: |
Brenda Tallon |
E-Mail: |
btallon@telus.net |
Homepage: |
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Location: |
Prince George
British Columia |
Comments: |
THIS STORY IS
WHAT HAPPENS TO CHILDREN EVERY DAY AND IT IS SO SAD
PEROPLE SHOULD FIGHT THIS TILL THE END OF TIME AND i
WOULD MORE THAN HAPPY TO HELP IN AWAY WAY I CAN |
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Friday, July 09, 2004 4:13:46 AM |
Name: |
Karan |
E-Mail: |
karannanda16@yahooo |
Homepage: |
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Location: |
Delhi, India |
Comments: |
Dear Gabby,
Intolerance has been part of human nature right from the
time when we became conscious.We (people with senstivity
to human feelings) have to get together and increase our
tribe to overwhelm the sceptics of our behaviours and
the people creating holocasts in our lives.
Helping victims of such mental, physical abuse is the
best way of keeping alive Bills memory and thanking God
for the gift of having Bill with you for whatever time
willed by him.
Regards
Karan
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Wednesday, July 07, 2004 3:11:47 AM |
Name: |
Michael Allen |
E-Mail: |
michaelkierenlynchjnr@hotmail.com |
Homepage: |
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Location: |
Sydney
Australia |
Comments: |
Dear Gabbi,as
a Catholic,and as a decent "gay" Australian
citizen I was both shocked and appalled to hear of your
son Bill's battle,simply because he was gay.Not much at
the age of 38 makes me cry these days, but I wept once I
read his story. I did not have it easy growing up gay,no
one does! But no one deserves to be gay bashed,or taken
advantage of by other gay people,who should know
better,at so young an age.I will remember Bill and your
family as well as Robbie Kirkland and family in my
prayers when I attend Mass on sundays. Gay youth suicide
is a big problem world wide, and sharing your story with
others will help show what people really do when they
insult and hurt gay people. I survived an attempt to
suicide when I was 18yo . I was very fortunate to have
some very good friends who helped me through that time.
Nothing can ever bring Bill back! But we can all help,
and be more aware of all the other Bills out there. |
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Wednesday, July 07, 2004 2:38:25 AM |
Name: |
Do U know what
SODOMITES DO? |
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Comments: |
Bill was a
SODOMITE, he did himself and the world a favor by
murdering himself.It would be a better world if the rest
of the SODOMITE'S followed Bills example. I am extremely
sorry for your loss BUT..................... |
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Thursday, July 01, 2004 8:28:19 PM |
Name: |
Sarah Esmi |
E-Mail: |
doggyluver89@aol.com |
Homepage: |
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Location: |
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Comments: |
God bless you. |
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Thursday, July 01, 2004 11:25:05 AM |
Name: |
Colin Gledhill |
E-Mail: |
poppytronic@msn.com |
Homepage: |
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Location: |
Manchester,
England |
Comments: |
The gay,
lesbian, bisexuual TV and TS communities of the world
need to stand closer together today more than ever.
Equality is not enough, freedom is everything |
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Wednesday, June 23, 2004 4:28:50 AM |
Name: |
Armadajaya |
E-Mail: |
armadajaya1@yahoo.co.uk |
Homepage: |
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Location: |
Malaysia |
Comments: |
Dear Gabi,
I am a Muslim and a Malaysian. After reading the story
of your son and understanding your background, you have
my heart with you.
While I count myself as a strict Muslim, I believe that
the crime that pushed your son to the threshold, is not
only heinous and of the worst nature. Precisely because
I am strict Muslim that I believe Bill should have been
given a chance by the world to contribute in many useful
ways that I believe he could. While I beg to differ on
many issues regarding sexuality, I respect his right to
choose his way of life. I have lost a great mother and I
still miss her. I know what it is like to lose a very
special person in one's life.
Be strong. There are many good things we can do on earth
before we are called to the Lord. My mom has done her
bit. I hope I could do mine. I wish you the best in
fulfilling the goods things that Bill would have wanted
to do.
I am sad for him and my heart goes for him too.
May Allah / God / Yahweh / Jehovah bless us all in this
world and the Hereafter.
Sincerely yours
Armadajaya
Kuala Lumpur
23 June 2004
4.33 pm Malaysian Time
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Wednesday, June 23, 2004 1:14:36 AM |
Name: |
Robin |
E-Mail: |
uniscage@yahoo.com |
Homepage: |
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Location: |
Tumwater |
Comments: |
Would love to
come to see you very soon |
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Tuesday, June 22, 2004 2:58:14 PM |
Name: |
Mrs. Webster |
E-Mail: |
nazaree2003@yahoo.com |
Homepage: |
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Location: |
Alabama |
Comments: |
I don't
condone violence of any kind. I also don't condone same
sex relationships. I want us as a nation to take
resposibility of our children and our actions. What was
going on in the home or environment that made
bisexuallity ok? I'm praying for your family and mines.
We need more love and Passion of God in our lives. It's
not easy to accept things our kids do, but we must
remember they were taught by us. |
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Tuesday, June 22, 2004 2:54:28 PM |
Name: |
rose |
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Comments: |
God bless you
and Bill always. |
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Saturday, June 19, 2004 2:08:40 PM |
Name: |
Nicole |
E-Mail: |
firdragon8@aol.com |
Homepage: |
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Location: |
Minooka, IL |
Comments: |
Your story
truly touched my heart. God bless you for believing in
your son and helping the world understand. Bill will be
in my prayers. |
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Saturday, June 19, 2004 11:14:03 AM |
Name: |
greg ford |
E-Mail: |
greg.ford@sympatico.ca |
Homepage: |
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Location: |
canada !
ottawa area |
Comments: |
THE world is
the pit's now ! we were blessed to have BILL FOR short
visit !now he on our side !now your an angle !!buddy!!
with all the love and prayer for the world!!!we have
touched by an angle with BILL !!! |
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Tuesday, June 15, 2004 8:09:03 PM |
Name: |
Joyce Acton |
E-Mail: |
otownrecording@msn.com |
Homepage: |
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Location: |
omaha |
Comments: |
I am ready
your article for a class project. I am in school for
para-legal. |
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Monday, June 14, 2004 8:33:01 PM |
Name: |
Mark Flippen |
E-Mail: |
mcfwt@msn.com |
Homepage: |
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Location: |
Orlando |
Comments: |
I am so sorry,
my heart will always go out to you, your family and
Bill. I know what is like to go through life this way. I
was quote unquote "special". Upper middle
class in my small town upbringing. I still love my
parents. My heart broke many times. I prayed I would
never be this way. However, at an older age now i
understand now there is a more peaceful feel of life
within myself. We live in a very violent world. I wish I
could change it for you and me. My heart goes out to
you. I have my own heart aches. This will be another I
add in my prayers.
Respectfully Submitted,
Mark Flippen
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Sunday, June 13, 2004 12:37:59 AM |
Name: |
Dwayne |
E-Mail: |
hdr7188@yahoo.com |
Homepage: |
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Location: |
Atlanta |
Comments: |
I wanted to
send you my thoughts about your son. Being pagan, he no
doubt believed that this life is just a rehearsal for
the real thing. I believe in Reincarnation and you
cannot keep people like your son away from coming back
to this Earth to try and educate the racist and bigots
of this world. He came here for a purpose, reached his
objective, and will be back shortly. Keep an eye out for
him. You will know him when you see him again. I'm
positive of that. His purpose was to bear a burden for
all gay/bisexual teens, educate, and move on to a new
project. Sound familiar? Look at the countless people
who have been touched by him that didn't even know him.
That is truely power in every sense of the word. Always
remember that death is but a comma; not a period; in the
book of life. My heart goes out to you and your family
but with people like you and your son, peace WILL be
achieved on this planet like we have never known. We
just need to hold on until the rest of the world catches
up with us. Love to you and your new extended family. |
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Friday, June 11, 2004 10:47:52 AM |
Name: |
Joanne |
E-Mail: |
ustabhapee@aol.com |
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Location: |
Raleigh, NC |
Comments: |
As a Mom of a
gay, transgendered son who has lived through torture
because of who he is, my heart goes out to you. He is 17
now and I'm so afraid for him because of what's
happening to people in this world that are considered
society's "oddballs".
Prayers to you and your family and God Bless Bill. |
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Thursday, June 10, 2004 8:45:50 PM |
Name: |
Vanessa Wasman |
E-Mail: |
vwasman@msn.com |
Homepage: |
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Location: |
Olympia |
Comments: |
Hello, I knew
Bill back in high school, and I always enjoyed being in
his company. I found your website and just wanted to
tell you that even though it's been a long time, my
thoughts often turn to Bill and my thoughts and prayers
will continue to be with you and your family. |
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Wednesday, June 09, 2004 12:49:23 AM |
Name: |
Alex |
E-Mail: |
alex_boi_2004@yahoo.com |
Homepage: |
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Location: |
Mississippi |
Comments: |
Hi,
I am a 16 year old from Mississppi. I guess you could
say I am bi-sexual. There is truely alot of hate in this
world we live in. I am not openly bi-sexual as alot of
my friends, family, and people around my town are very
racist. I have dropped out of school because of problems
relating to who I am, it can be truely hard. Sometimes I
too have felt like taking my life was the only way out,
my parents and brother are extremely racist. I know I
will never be able to let my parents know who I truely
am. My Entire life has been based on lies. I still have
thoughts about what it would be like to go to sleep and
never wake up. I know if my parents found out I was
bi-sexual they would hate and disown me. I have my life
planned out, when I turn 18 Feb. 9th, 2006, I am leaving
Mississippi, I want to get as far away from this place
as I can. I know if I want to truely be who I am inside,
I will have to be 'reborn' in a since, my parents will
never know where I am or who I am anymore. So maybe
death would be a better way out. But that is all to come
soon.
I am truely sorry about your son, I can truely relate to
him as I am fighting my own battle much like his, but I
do not have understanding parents like he does.
Your story has given me alot of hope in my life, and
that someday I might actually have something to look
forward to.
~Alex |
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Tuesday, June 08, 2004 11:55:29 AM |
Name: |
Michael
Willbanks |
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michael_willbanks@yahoo.com |
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Location: |
Missouri
Lexington |
Comments: |
I am sorry
that your son killed himself becasue he was gay. I would
also like to let you know that I felt the same way when
I came out of the Closet. Michael Willbanks |
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Tuesday, June 08, 2004 5:16:44 AM |
Name: |
Jill S. |
E-Mail: |
jilliwill@yahoo.com |
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Location: |
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Comments: |
I wanted to
say I am openly bi-sexual. I am lucky today that the
place I am living now it is not held against me. First I
learned about Matthew Shepard. My high school had the
play “The laramie project.” This alone was so
emotional for me. While looking up more I found a link
to here. I really don’t know what I would have done if
I was in his shoes. Things are so different now then
they once where and that is because of him and people
like Matthew. They might have lost their lives but they
did so much more then a lot of people will do in the 80
years they are living today. For that I am grateful. I
am grateful for people like you who will never let the
memories die. Thank you. From now on I will not let it
die in my heart for I will always know they made it
better for me. |
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Monday, June 07, 2004 3:35:09 PM |
Name: |
Carole Henry |
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Comments: |
Thank you so
much for sharing your son's story. I have a 17 year old
nephew who is openly gay, and I hurt for him so often
due to the prejudices he faces. I also had a cousin who
never told anyone in the famiy that he was gay because
I'm sure he felt it was not a safe thing to share. He
died of AIDS related ailments (I think pneumonia is what
finally got him), and only one sister was at his bedside
because he did not trust anyone else. Such a sad way to
live. Again, thank you for sharing. May your story
penetrate the walls of hatred and allow for others, too,
to speak out against the hurts so that one day we can
live Martin Luther King's dream. |
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Friday, June 04, 2004 7:32:17
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Name: |
lucas |
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Homepage: |
http://www.billet-avion-step.com/ |
Location: |
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Comments: |
Im so sorry
about your son! Im doing a projrct on suicide. The exact
topic is "teen suicide and the afterthoughts".
But it really hurts me to see so many teens, committing
suicide! Anyone for that matter. But when I read things
like this it gets me all emotional. But Im really sorry
about your son again! |
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Thursday, June 03, 2004 11:03:47 PM |
Name: |
Mary Conrad |
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Location: |
Spanish Fork,
Utah |
Comments: |
I knew Noel in
high school. In searching for him for the 10 year
reunion Selena Smith told me of this page. I am touched.
I hope I can change attitudes. As a junior high teacher,
I might be able to. |
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Thursday, June 03, 2004 6:22:26 PM |
Name: |
anoymous |
E-Mail: |
anonymoustoday2001@yahoo.co.uk |
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Location: |
UK |
Comments: |
This story has
touched me more than any movie or book could because it
is so true to me. I am gay and I have experienced what
your son did and even though I'm only 20, it's nice to
know that there are people in the world that care. I
guess I've thought about suicide but you know what,
knowing that there are people who don't think badly of
me, or of the things I can't help, it gets you through
to tomorrow, and you know what they say, 'tomorrow's
another day'. It makes me sad that your son had to die
to show me this. I'll say thank-you, but I don't know if
those are the right words to use. Peace. |
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Wednesday, June 02, 2004 7:41:55 PM |
Name: |
Paul |
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Homepage: |
http://paulpellerito.blogspot.com |
Location: |
Kalamazooo MI |
Comments: |
Hi Gabi! I
used to write for Oasis way back. You and Bill and Steve
today reentered my thoughts after a long absense so I
figured I'd check up on everyone. Wanted to say hello
and I hope things are going well for you! Much love! |
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Wednesday, June 02, 2004 4:56:39 AM |
Name: |
Marlène |
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marplo@videotron.ca |
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Montreal,
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Bill's story
deeply touched me and I had tears all over my face when
I was reading about it. How can people be so cruel and
full of hatred within themselves? I keep hope that one
day the world will be a better place, but will I live
long enough to see that? My thoughts of deep sympathy go
to Bill's family and to all the families that have to
cope with the loss of a loved one, gone too soon because
of hate and misunderstanding... |
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Tuesday, June 01, 2004 8:57:01 PM |
Name: |
Vanessa
Arellano |
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Location: |
Whittier
california |
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hi my name is
vanessa Arellano. i was very interested in your son
tragic story about his death. I'm doing a research paper
on gay hate crims and I have never heard about Bill I've
only heard of Matthew Shepherd who was killed because he
was gay also and I'm straight and I believe that all
different types meaning color of gender of background
should make a difference but I wish you the best in luck
in life and people can't judge you only God could and I
hate is so powerful I think that people don't really
know the meaning to it yet.
Thank you so very much
Vanessa
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Tuesday, June 01, 2004 9:01:07 AM |
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Michael Trower |
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yoshimitsu46@hotmail.com |
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Location: |
Elizabeth,
South Australia |
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To all that
may read this...
I read this story last year and it touched somewhere
where nothing has touched before. I never met Bill and
unfortanatly, i never will...
Its amazing how one person's story can touch so many
people from all over the globe...
As a tribute to Bill... i wrote this poem for him and
his family...
Why?
By Michael Trower.
Why is there love? Why is there hate?
Why do we fell? Why do we mate?
Why are we straight? Why are we bi?
Why cant a gay is a "normal" guy?
Why is the question! Why do we fell?
Why is the question! Why is this real?
Tomorrow we will wake up and again we try,
tomorrow we wake up and we will ask "Why"
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Monday, May 31, 2004 1:18:24 AM |
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Lee Hutchinson |
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Again I visit
this wonderful and touching site. Today I am reading the
past guestbook posts, and am touched by the people that
have taken the time to write.
I too am gay but have been very fortunate in having
found my confidence, thanks both to myself and to those
that have touched my heart. For those that are
struggling with thoughts, feelings and emotions, I hope
you find your peace.
Please read and understand the story of Bill, take care
to appreciate this is a World of difference, which makes
it such a wonderful place. Think for a moment before you
speak, becuase it's easy to affect others around you
without thinking...
Take care.
Lee |
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Sunday, May 30, 2004 7:20:01 PM |
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Don Murphy |
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d.g.murphy@worldnet.att.net |
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Location: |
Santa Fe |
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Looking
forward to a phone visit with you and Alec -- we'll give
a call soon!
Blessings!
Don |
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Wednesday, May 26, 2004 10:15:20 PM |
Name: |
_mike_ |
E-Mail: |
mdibbets@yahoo.com |
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http://members.lycos.co.uk/christiansandmuslims/ |
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In Jesus
Christ, everywhere where He sen |
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Hi, I am
Michael and I am a Christian.
I must say that when I read this story, that I can
understand it and I feel sympathy for your loss. I am
deeply sorry about it.
I would like to say, as a Christian I am against gays
and lesbian sexual behaviour. God created man and woman
to be married and to erm... "join" together.
I am not saying that gay and lesbian people are
defenately going to hell because they are gay or
lesbian. Sometimes people are born with a different
thinking pattern than others(a friend of mine is one of
those) and they can't do a thing about it.
I am saying that the sexual acts are against God because
God created man and woman for a reason. Man and woman
are created for eachother, and noone else.
Homosexual behaviour is against God.
My friend who is a homosexual, has decided to not
"act" out his "natural" behaviour
anymore and decided to go for God. This has earned him
his salvation and he can now look upon God without doubt
or guilt.
I wish to let you know that if you act out your
homosexual nature, that you are sinning against the most
high God.
If you can refrain yourself from that behaviour and stay
pure, then you can come into the face of the almighty
father God.
Jesus has died for your sins, and your sins He has
suffered on the cross and the way to it.
Know what He did for you and repent. If you have
children who are gay, teach them to restrain themselves
and put their focus upon God. Let them pray for
salvation from the temptation that satan puts on them.
If you are gay yourself, pray to God for forgiveness and
pray for strength to resist temptation. Cut all bonds
with other gay people you know. Otherwise you will
be tempted to do it again.
Trust in the Lord, Jesus Christ, He who will come again,
and pray that you will not have to explain to Him on
judgement day why you did what you did because you are
saved.
In Jesus Christ I bless you all,
Michael |
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Wednesday, May 26, 2004 5:37:54 PM |
Name: |
Michael B
Deffendoll |
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upfrontboi@cablespeed.com |
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Location: |
Washington |
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I enjoyed the
story. We (me and my lover of 29 years) are in the
process of adopting a 14yr old boy. We see many things
in him and one that he may be gay/bisexual. We don't
care as we will love him unconditionally. He was
sexually aboused by the mothers great uncle. The mother
to this day does not understand by her action (denial)
she added and caused her child to act out wrong. I pray
every night that MY CHILD will know we love him and will
be at his side at all times. Infact we encourage him to
come to use every change we get. Thanks for your story
and when the time is right we will have him read the
story as well!
B and B |
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Monday, May 24, 2004 8:58:36 PM |
Name: |
Lily |
E-Mail: |
redhottlips22@yahoo.com |
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Location: |
california |
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I am sorry for
your loss. I had an uncle commit suicide and he was gay
too. i also have a friend who is bisexual and have some
cousins who are. before i really knew what it meant i
used to say things like "thats gay" i have
stopped that ever since i knew my uncle was gay. i think
it is a stupid term to use. those boys that did the hate
crime were wrong and they should realise what they did
to Bill. they should really think about their actions
and i am sure that hundreds of people around the world
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Monday, May 24, 2004 6:06:48 PM |
Name: |
Teresa Day |
E-Mail: |
daybrewhaha@aol.com |
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Location: |
Colorado |
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My heart is
breaking not only for you and your son and his courage
but for me
and my son who I just found out is bisexual. Hate is my
greatest fear. My son's sexuality doesn't scare me
butlosing him to hate and ignorance does. Thank you for
sharing this story. |
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Monday, May 24, 2004 5:23:01 PM |
Name: |
DESIREE |
E-Mail: |
@vaulter@msn.com |
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Location: |
TEXAS |
Comments: |
I AM DOING A
SPEECH ABOUT HATE CRIMES AGAINST GAY AND LESBIAN'S. I
CAME ACROSS YOUR STORY AND IT BROUGHT MANY TEARS TO MY
EYES. I AM VERY SORRY FOR YOUR LOSS. I MY SELF AM A
LESBIAN AND I CAME OUT AT THE AGE OF 16 AND IT WAS VERY
HARD AT FIRST, BUT YOU WERE IN THE RIGHT FOR LOVING YOUR
SON. MY PARENTS ACCEPT ME FOR WHO I AM AND THAT IS ALL
THAT MATTERS TO ME. I AM JUST SORRY YOUR SON DID NOT
FEEL THE SAME WAY. I HOPE MY SPEECH REACHES MANY YOUNG
PEOPLE THE WAY YOUR SONS SPEECH DID.
THANKS FOR YOUR STORY.
DES. |
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Monday, May 24, 2004 11:48:21 AM |
Name: |
Rayne Welis |
E-Mail: |
magonthehulkingdragon@yahoo.com |
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Location: |
Georgia |
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I am a 16 year
old bisexual teen. i have been having trouble dealing
with my sexuality and sometimes i feel suicidal. This
story has touched me alot. I live in a rural town so its
hard to find ppl like me. i often feel isolated. I am
sorry about the familys loss |
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Monday, May 24, 2004 1:52:12 AM |
Name: |
Sandra Klumpp |
E-Mail: |
chief_sandra@msn.com |
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Location: |
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The reason I'm
reading this webpage is because my situation is very
similar. I'm hated by my own mother and I've had it and
don't know what to do, I can't emotionally deal with her
hating me telling me what a loser I am. Suicide is the
biggest thing on my mind. It's sad how some people act
as if they have no heart. I'm sorry about Billy, he was
probably a successful person who this world needed, just
like me. |
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Sunday, May 23, 2004 2:18:21
PM |
Name: |
Carlos Michael
Padilla |
E-Mail: |
carlosmichael@cox.net |
Homepage: |
http://www.geocities.com/cmdrnbriefs/index.html |
Location: |
Tulsa,
Oklahoma |
Comments: |
I was deeply
touched by this tribute to Bill. Thank you for allowing
us to visit with Bill through this medium. I am working
on a Power Point memorial called, "EIGHTEEN"
dedicated to the memories of Barry Winchell, Fred
Martinex, Robbie Kirkland, Billy Gaither, Arther Warren,
Jacob Orosco, Allen Scindler, Bill Clayton, Bruce
Michael, Gary Matson, Julio Rivera, Danny Overstreet,
Winfield Mowder, Scott Amedure, Steen Fenrich, Brandon
Teena, Matthew Shepard, and Joey Lipitz. I would be
honored if you would allow me to include one or several
photos of Bill and whatever information you are willing
to provide on Bill (i.e., Date of Birth, likes,
dislikes, etc.) Thank you very much. |
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Friday, May 21, 2004 11:49:25 AM |
Name: |
rod |
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rodstarr@blueyonder.co.uk |
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Location: |
england |
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i am so moved
to read bills story..i to have been to the place which
so upset bill......still do..life for me is not easy..i
have a good partner but fear is the root of my
problems..i hope i can get to feel good about
myself...just for now? loving thoughts ...rod |
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Thursday, May 20, 2004 2:22:42 PM |
Name: |
LYNDA |
E-Mail: |
lallenwa@yahoo.com |
Homepage: |
http://myweb.ecomplanet.com/alle3721/home.htm |
Location: |
Washington |
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I am deeply
touched by Bill's story and wanted to extend my
condolences. I will forward his story onto others. Good
for you to put his story out there, I hope in his honor
this will help another. |
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Thursday, May 20, 2004 12:43:26 AM |
Name: |
Thomas |
E-Mail: |
corruptedcanine@yahoo.com |
Homepage: |
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Location: |
Moore |
Comments: |
I have visited
this page many times and never said hello. It hits too
close to home for me. I still don't know how I made it
through the years of depression and hopelessness to get
to where I am. I truly grieve for your loss as I know
you do still. I wish the nation would wake up and
realize the impact that their intolerance has on
intelligent, sensitive people like Bill. Maybe one day. |
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Wednesday, May 19, 2004 12:50:13 AM |
Name: |
Chakiese |
E-Mail: |
kiesecole@aol.com |
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Location: |
lithonia ga |
Comments: |
Im so sorry
about your son! Im doing a projrct on suicide. The exact
topic is "teen suicide and the afterthoughts".
But it really hurts me to see so many teens, committing
suicide! Anyone for that matter. But when I read things
like this it gets me all emotional. But Im really sorry
about your son again! |
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Tuesday, May 18, 2004 9:17:58 PM |
Name: |
Gabi Clayton |
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Homepage: |
http://www.youth-guard.org/gabi/respondex.html |
Location: |
Olympia, WA |
Comments: |
This new
guestbook was started on 5/18/04. Links to pages with
all the past responses to Bill's story are on the page
link above.
Thank you so much for signing my guestbook.
Love, Gabi |
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