Gabi Clayton's Guestbook #52 - From 5/18/04 to 7/26/04
Note: This guestbook reads from the bottom of the page up. -- Gabi

      Monday, July 26, 2004  4:51:47 PM
Name: Carlos
E-Mail: freed_01@yahoo.com
Homepage:
Location: Los Angeles CA
Comments: I read the story of your son Bill after finding a link on another website. It saddened my day and felt for him and his friend Sam tremendously. I felt for his mother and his family that they went through these events of hatred from the time he was raped by that man. I, however, was saddened some more when I discovered the links and comments of the Iraq War and our president, George W. Bush. Were these the types of comments we should teach our children? Teach Bill? This is the lack of respect for the leadership that the leftist sector of the U.S. “society” continues to outpour daily? If Bill lived in Iraq, he would certainly been tortured and murdered under Hussein’s government. The new government, graciously thankful to the U.S. invasion, must be “taught” of tolerances in the world today. Of course, that may be difficult in the Middle East as it continues to be in the U.S. Countries like Cuba and North Korea continues to torture and murder the gay population.
A memory to a great boy like Bill has been tarnished by his mother with the leftist, anti-war rhetoric on the website. The site should maintain its initial ideals of tolerance against sexual orientation, racist, religions, sexist, etc. issues. As a bisexual father of Hispanic origin, I totally understand the tolerance issues to be addressed. I do not understand the political overtones instilled on the site especially by his mother.
Thank God for the United States that we can state our opinion and sometimes pay the consequences but this is not true in Iraq, Cuba, China, etc. etc. etc.
From a most distressed concerned bisexual man who is also a father, Hispanic, God-fearing religious Christian, politically moderate and supportive of the country in foreign lands.


From Gabi
My answer in part to Carlos (above):
I think we have something on the Safe School Coalition website that speaks to some of what you are concerned with and objecting to on my site. At http://www.safeschoolscoalition.org/LGBTAntiWar.pdf in pdf format. It is "Is Opposing the War An LGBT Issue?" and in part it says:

As Audre Lorde, the noted poet, activist, and writer who was both Black and lesbian, said, "There is no such thing as a single-issue struggle because we do not live single-issue lives."

Race, gender, culture, class, age, and the complex interrelationships of these factors are central to our LGBT experience and analysis of the impacts of the "War on Terror" here and abroad. While all of us in the LGBT movement are affected by the " War on Terror," people of color, immigrants and refugees , women, children and youth, and poor people — including LGBT people — disproportionately bear the burden of war-related repression, violence, and harm. These are the same groups in the United States who already suffer the multiple harms of domestic and sexual violence, hate violence, poverty, and dispossession.

You may want to read the rest for more. It was created by LGBT Program, Community Relations Unit of the American Friends Service Committee http://www.afsc.org/lgbt/peace  in partnership with the National Youth Advocacy Coalition NYAC www.nyacyouth.org  

 

      Wednesday, July 21, 2004  7:50:14 PM
Name: lee prestley
E-Mail: prestley321
Homepage:
Location: united kingdom , manchester
Comments: read the story it overwelmed me to think in a so called civilised world that kind of hate for a fellow human still excistes HOPE BILL HAS FOUND PEACE WITH HIS MAKER , LEE

      Tuesday, July 20, 2004  9:16:13 PM
Name: Luis
E-Mail:
Homepage:
Location: California
Comments: I'm sad about what happened to your son. I'm 16 and i'm gay. I started realizing it when i was in middle school and i had never told anyone until this year when i told a good friend at school. She was very supportive and i thank her for that. Since then i've only told my two older sisters. At first they asked if i was joking, but i told them i wasn't. One said it was okay and the other one had tears. I asked her why she was crying and she said she wasn't crying it was just that she was still in some denial. I haven't got the courage to tell my parents or the rest of my family. i think i will though, and i think my parents will understand. I too am afraid of what people might think. i am afraid that i might fall victim to a similar crime. It is sad to think we live in such a hateful world. I hope no one will have to go through the same thing. I wish you and your family the best of luck.
(P.S. After reading about the word "Schwul" i felt that in every culture there is always a demeaning term for homosexuals, lesbians, and bisexuals. I speak Spanish and the equivalent to the term "schwul" is "joto" (pronounced Hoh toh) and an even worse word, "Maricón" which is equal to the word, "Fag" or "faggot."
I don't like it when people discriminate and use these words against homosexuals because i feel discriminated against too. I hope your family will prevail and really hope there will be an end to these terrible crimes.
Sincerely,
Luis
"Ama a tu hermano y trata a otros cómo tú quieres hacer tratado."
(Love your brother and treat others the way you want to be treated.)

      Monday, July 19, 2004  12:30:35 AM
Name: tasha williams
E-Mail: ajvillereppingul@aol.com
Homepage: http://ajvillereppingul@aol.com
Location: maryland
Comments: well i feel like you should do u ,but i've always been told that homosexuality is wrong but i am a bisexual too...so just do u have fun wit' your life...

      Sunday, July 18, 2004  2:15:04 PM
Name: nathanbr@frxglobal.com
E-Mail: nathanbr@frxglobal.com
Homepage:
Location:
Comments: Gabi--
I am sorry for the loss of your son. Like most leftists, you're confused about the relationship of personal choice and tolerance.
Tolerance doesnt come from a box, it must be learned. Just as the hatefilled perpetrators attacked your son, we were all attacked on 9/11 -- for being who we are. We must forebear those who hate up to a point, and try to steer them rightly. When we cannot, and they still express hate, they must understand the consequence of their action is to be reviled in return. It is the only way to learn.
People will not learn tolerance for gays from reading your site, they might think more about it though. They will only truely learn when they meet gays and discover they are normal and decent. If still they attack, then that is why we have prisons.
Do you see that the relations of countries are the same way?
Look closer atthe anti-war sites you are liked to, and you will see they have much more in common with those who attacked you r son than with the toleraters.
God bless.
Nathan Branson

      Friday, July 16, 2004  1:34:03 PM
Name: Alex
E-Mail: alex@rideas.co.uk
Homepage:
Location: UK
Comments: A truely tragic loss. My heart goes out to you.
I hope one day a world will exist where people won't be attacked or be the victim of hate based simply upon who they are, by people who don't even know them, and by people who don't understand what human sexuality is.
As a 19 y/o gay in the UK, I can say that things are getting better but there's still a long way to go.
It's a shame as some comments in this guestbook show that ignorance (and even hate) is still rife.
Take care.

      Monday, July 12, 2004  11:36:15 PM
Name: Kyle
E-Mail: egavasslave@aol.com
Homepage:
Location: CT
Comments: Your son's story has touched me deeply and I am extremely sorry for your loss. It is my deepest wish for the future that children should be raised without hate and fear, that people will come to understand one another and become allies, rather than enemies assaulting each other because of their differences. I come from a school in CT where homophobia is on the rise and people fear that which cannot be explained. Last year we started our schools first Gay-Straight Alliance to help people understand what life is like for those that are gay, bisexual and transgender. Your son's story has inspired me to work harder this upcoming year when I take over as the leader of our GSA. It is my hope along with that of my fellow members that we can help make the world a better place, starting with our school, one step at a time.
My heart goes out to you,

      Monday, July 12, 2004  12:44:08 PM
Name: Joan Mathews
E-Mail: joanita@bellsouth.net
Homepage:
Location: Davie Fl
Comments: I have read your story about your son.My heart goes out to you. You are such a strong person. The strength of you and your family was such a help for your son. The work you are doing now is so vital and so necessary. As you say, the hate grows with silence. but I have a feeling of anger and hate for the verbal abuse and hateful actions of many homophobics. They are so in the dark. They must be educated. Their minds have been brainwashed. It is true that many people hide their sexual orientation and they live a life of pretence of being straight-- by getting married etc. Probably some of these people even show hate toward people who are not straight. I think that there are many people in this world who are very insecure themselves and they have to find other people to put down so that they can feel superior. My grandson came out last year. He is in his first year of college now. I am very worried about him. thank you for this web site I will be visiting it often. Sincerely Joan Mathews

      Sunday, July 11, 2004  7:36:47 PM
Name: William Turner
E-Mail: williamdturner@yahoo.com
Homepage:
Location: Nashville Tennessee
Comments: I read your story and it really just hit home. I had a friend that went through a very simalir experince, and she also commited suicide. I was reading some of the entries in your guest book, and see that the world still has some uneducated, and just plain stupid people. Sad to say I know, but so true. I am gay, and the thing people have to relieze, is that this life style is not a chioce, this is the way i was born, and the way i will die. Who in their right mind, choose to live a life style of such prejudice? I just wanted you to know, that you are in my thoughts as well as your son.

      Sunday, July 11, 2004  12:53:20 AM
Name: Brenda Tallon
E-Mail: btallon@telus.net
Homepage:
Location: Prince George British Columia
Comments: THIS STORY IS WHAT HAPPENS TO CHILDREN EVERY DAY AND IT IS SO SAD PEROPLE SHOULD FIGHT THIS TILL THE END OF TIME AND i WOULD MORE THAN HAPPY TO HELP IN AWAY WAY I CAN

      Friday, July 09, 2004  4:13:46 AM
Name: Karan
E-Mail: karannanda16@yahooo
Homepage:
Location: Delhi, India
Comments: Dear Gabby,
Intolerance has been part of human nature right from the time when we became conscious.We (people with senstivity to human feelings) have to get together and increase our tribe to overwhelm the sceptics of our behaviours and the people creating holocasts in our lives.
Helping victims of such mental, physical abuse is the best way of keeping alive Bills memory and thanking God for the gift of having Bill with you for whatever time willed by him.
Regards
Karan

      Wednesday, July 07, 2004  3:11:47 AM
Name: Michael Allen
E-Mail: michaelkierenlynchjnr@hotmail.com
Homepage:
Location: Sydney Australia
Comments: Dear Gabbi,as a Catholic,and as a decent "gay" Australian citizen I was both shocked and appalled to hear of your son Bill's battle,simply because he was gay.Not much at the age of 38 makes me cry these days, but I wept once I read his story. I did not have it easy growing up gay,no one does! But no one deserves to be gay bashed,or taken advantage of by other gay people,who should know better,at so young an age.I will remember Bill and your family as well as Robbie Kirkland and family in my prayers when I attend Mass on sundays. Gay youth suicide is a big problem world wide, and sharing your story with others will help show what people really do when they insult and hurt gay people. I survived an attempt to suicide when I was 18yo . I was very fortunate to have some very good friends who helped me through that time. Nothing can ever bring Bill back! But we can all help, and be more aware of all the other Bills out there.

      Wednesday, July 07, 2004  2:38:25 AM
Name: Do U know what SODOMITES DO?
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Comments: Bill was a SODOMITE, he did himself and the world a favor by murdering himself.It would be a better world if the rest of the SODOMITE'S followed Bills example. I am extremely sorry for your loss BUT.....................

      Thursday, July 01, 2004  8:28:19 PM
Name: Sarah Esmi
E-Mail: doggyluver89@aol.com
Homepage:
Location:
Comments: God bless you.

      Thursday, July 01, 2004  11:25:05 AM
Name: Colin Gledhill
E-Mail: poppytronic@msn.com
Homepage:
Location: Manchester, England
Comments: The gay, lesbian, bisexuual TV and TS communities of the world need to stand closer together today more than ever. Equality is not enough, freedom is everything

      Thursday, June 24, 2004  4:44:56 PM
Name: Allen
E-Mail: webmaster@friendsofsananselmo.org
Homepage: http://www.friendsofsananselmo.org
Location: California
Comments: Great site, wish there were more with a similar purpose to yours! Keep up the good work!

      Wednesday, June 23, 2004  4:28:50 AM
Name: Armadajaya
E-Mail: armadajaya1@yahoo.co.uk
Homepage:
Location: Malaysia
Comments: Dear Gabi,
I am a Muslim and a Malaysian. After reading the story of your son and understanding your background, you have my heart with you.
While I count myself as a strict Muslim, I believe that the crime that pushed your son to the threshold, is not only heinous and of the worst nature. Precisely because I am strict Muslim that I believe Bill should have been given a chance by the world to contribute in many useful ways that I believe he could. While I beg to differ on many issues regarding sexuality, I respect his right to choose his way of life. I have lost a great mother and I still miss her. I know what it is like to lose a very special person in one's life.
Be strong. There are many good things we can do on earth before we are called to the Lord. My mom has done her bit. I hope I could do mine. I wish you the best in fulfilling the goods things that Bill would have wanted to do.
I am sad for him and my heart goes for him too.
May Allah / God / Yahweh / Jehovah bless us all in this world and the Hereafter.
Sincerely yours
Armadajaya
Kuala Lumpur
23 June 2004
4.33 pm Malaysian Time

      Wednesday, June 23, 2004  1:14:36 AM
Name: Robin
E-Mail: uniscage@yahoo.com
Homepage:
Location: Tumwater
Comments: Would love to come to see you very soon

      Tuesday, June 22, 2004  2:58:14 PM
Name: Mrs. Webster
E-Mail: nazaree2003@yahoo.com
Homepage:
Location: Alabama
Comments: I don't condone violence of any kind. I also don't condone same sex relationships. I want us as a nation to take resposibility of our children and our actions. What was going on in the home or environment that made bisexuallity ok? I'm praying for your family and mines. We need more love and Passion of God in our lives. It's not easy to accept things our kids do, but we must remember they were taught by us.

      Tuesday, June 22, 2004  2:54:28 PM
Name: rose
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Comments: God bless you and Bill always.

      Saturday, June 19, 2004  2:08:40 PM
Name: Nicole
E-Mail: firdragon8@aol.com
Homepage:
Location: Minooka, IL
Comments: Your story truly touched my heart. God bless you for believing in your son and helping the world understand. Bill will be in my prayers.

      Saturday, June 19, 2004  11:14:03 AM
Name: greg ford
E-Mail: greg.ford@sympatico.ca
Homepage:
Location: canada ! ottawa area
Comments: THE world is the pit's now ! we were blessed to have BILL FOR short visit !now he on our side !now your an angle !!buddy!! with all the love and prayer for the world!!!we have touched by an angle with BILL !!!

      Tuesday, June 15, 2004  8:09:03 PM
Name: Joyce Acton
E-Mail: otownrecording@msn.com
Homepage:
Location: omaha
Comments: I am ready your article for a class project. I am in school for para-legal.

      Monday, June 14, 2004  8:33:01 PM
Name: Mark Flippen
E-Mail: mcfwt@msn.com
Homepage:
Location: Orlando
Comments: I am so sorry, my heart will always go out to you, your family and Bill. I know what is like to go through life this way. I was quote unquote "special". Upper middle class in my small town upbringing. I still love my parents. My heart broke many times. I prayed I would never be this way. However, at an older age now i understand now there is a more peaceful feel of life within myself. We live in a very violent world. I wish I could change it for you and me. My heart goes out to you. I have my own heart aches. This will be another I add in my prayers.
Respectfully Submitted,
Mark Flippen

      Sunday, June 13, 2004  12:37:59 AM
Name: Dwayne
E-Mail: hdr7188@yahoo.com
Homepage:
Location: Atlanta
Comments: I wanted to send you my thoughts about your son. Being pagan, he no doubt believed that this life is just a rehearsal for the real thing. I believe in Reincarnation and you cannot keep people like your son away from coming back to this Earth to try and educate the racist and bigots of this world. He came here for a purpose, reached his objective, and will be back shortly. Keep an eye out for him. You will know him when you see him again. I'm positive of that. His purpose was to bear a burden for all gay/bisexual teens, educate, and move on to a new project. Sound familiar? Look at the countless people who have been touched by him that didn't even know him. That is truely power in every sense of the word. Always remember that death is but a comma; not a period; in the book of life. My heart goes out to you and your family but with people like you and your son, peace WILL be achieved on this planet like we have never known. We just need to hold on until the rest of the world catches up with us. Love to you and your new extended family.

      Friday, June 11, 2004  10:47:52 AM
Name: Joanne
E-Mail: ustabhapee@aol.com
Homepage:
Location: Raleigh, NC
Comments: As a Mom of a gay, transgendered son who has lived through torture because of who he is, my heart goes out to you. He is 17 now and I'm so afraid for him because of what's happening to people in this world that are considered society's "oddballs".
Prayers to you and your family and God Bless Bill.

      Thursday, June 10, 2004  8:45:50 PM
Name: Vanessa Wasman
E-Mail: vwasman@msn.com
Homepage:
Location: Olympia
Comments: Hello, I knew Bill back in high school, and I always enjoyed being in his company. I found your website and just wanted to tell you that even though it's been a long time, my thoughts often turn to Bill and my thoughts and prayers will continue to be with you and your family.

      Wednesday, June 09, 2004  12:49:23 AM
Name: Alex
E-Mail: alex_boi_2004@yahoo.com
Homepage:
Location: Mississippi
Comments: Hi,
I am a 16 year old from Mississppi. I guess you could say I am bi-sexual. There is truely alot of hate in this world we live in. I am not openly bi-sexual as alot of my friends, family, and people around my town are very racist. I have dropped out of school because of problems relating to who I am, it can be truely hard. Sometimes I too have felt like taking my life was the only way out, my parents and brother are extremely racist. I know I will never be able to let my parents know who I truely am. My Entire life has been based on lies. I still have thoughts about what it would be like to go to sleep and never wake up. I know if my parents found out I was bi-sexual they would hate and disown me. I have my life planned out, when I turn 18 Feb. 9th, 2006, I am leaving Mississippi, I want to get as far away from this place as I can. I know if I want to truely be who I am inside, I will have to be 'reborn' in a since, my parents will never know where I am or who I am anymore. So maybe death would be a better way out. But that is all to come soon.
I am truely sorry about your son, I can truely relate to him as I am fighting my own battle much like his, but I do not have understanding parents like he does.
Your story has given me alot of hope in my life, and that someday I might actually have something to look forward to.
~Alex

      Tuesday, June 08, 2004  11:55:29 AM
Name: Michael Willbanks
E-Mail: michael_willbanks@yahoo.com
Homepage:
Location: Missouri Lexington
Comments: I am sorry that your son killed himself becasue he was gay. I would also like to let you know that I felt the same way when I came out of the Closet. Michael Willbanks

      Tuesday, June 08, 2004  5:16:44 AM
Name: Jill S.
E-Mail: jilliwill@yahoo.com
Homepage:
Location:
Comments: I wanted to say I am openly bi-sexual. I am lucky today that the place I am living now it is not held against me. First I learned about Matthew Shepard. My high school had the play “The laramie project.” This alone was so emotional for me. While looking up more I found a link to here. I really don’t know what I would have done if I was in his shoes. Things are so different now then they once where and that is because of him and people like Matthew. They might have lost their lives but they did so much more then a lot of people will do in the 80 years they are living today. For that I am grateful. I am grateful for people like you who will never let the memories die. Thank you. From now on I will not let it die in my heart for I will always know they made it better for me.

      Monday, June 07, 2004  3:35:09 PM
Name: Carole Henry
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Comments: Thank you so much for sharing your son's story. I have a 17 year old nephew who is openly gay, and I hurt for him so often due to the prejudices he faces. I also had a cousin who never told anyone in the famiy that he was gay because I'm sure he felt it was not a safe thing to share. He died of AIDS related ailments (I think pneumonia is what finally got him), and only one sister was at his bedside because he did not trust anyone else. Such a sad way to live. Again, thank you for sharing. May your story penetrate the walls of hatred and allow for others, too, to speak out against the hurts so that one day we can live Martin Luther King's dream.
Friday, June 04, 2004  7:32:17 AM
Name: lucas
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Homepage: http://www.billet-avion-step.com/
Location:
Comments: Im so sorry about your son! Im doing a projrct on suicide. The exact topic is "teen suicide and the afterthoughts". But it really hurts me to see so many teens, committing suicide! Anyone for that matter. But when I read things like this it gets me all emotional. But Im really sorry about your son again!

      Thursday, June 03, 2004  11:03:47 PM
Name: Mary Conrad
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Homepage:
Location: Spanish Fork, Utah
Comments: I knew Noel in high school. In searching for him for the 10 year reunion Selena Smith told me of this page. I am touched. I hope I can change attitudes. As a junior high teacher, I might be able to.

      Thursday, June 03, 2004  6:22:26 PM
Name: anoymous
E-Mail: anonymoustoday2001@yahoo.co.uk
Homepage:
Location: UK
Comments: This story has touched me more than any movie or book could because it is so true to me. I am gay and I have experienced what your son did and even though I'm only 20, it's nice to know that there are people in the world that care. I guess I've thought about suicide but you know what, knowing that there are people who don't think badly of me, or of the things I can't help, it gets you through to tomorrow, and you know what they say, 'tomorrow's another day'. It makes me sad that your son had to die to show me this. I'll say thank-you, but I don't know if those are the right words to use. Peace.

      Wednesday, June 02, 2004  7:41:55 PM
Name: Paul
E-Mail:
Homepage: http://paulpellerito.blogspot.com
Location: Kalamazooo MI
Comments: Hi Gabi! I used to write for Oasis way back. You and Bill and Steve today reentered my thoughts after a long absense so I figured I'd check up on everyone. Wanted to say hello and I hope things are going well for you! Much love!

      Wednesday, June 02, 2004  4:56:39 AM
Name: Marlène
E-Mail: marplo@videotron.ca
Homepage:
Location: Montreal, Canada
Comments: Bill's story deeply touched me and I had tears all over my face when I was reading about it. How can people be so cruel and full of hatred within themselves? I keep hope that one day the world will be a better place, but will I live long enough to see that? My thoughts of deep sympathy go to Bill's family and to all the families that have to cope with the loss of a loved one, gone too soon because of hate and misunderstanding...

      Tuesday, June 01, 2004  8:57:01 PM
Name: Vanessa Arellano
E-Mail: shibbygal018
Homepage:
Location: Whittier california
Comments: hi my name is vanessa Arellano. i was very interested in your son tragic story about his death. I'm doing a research paper on gay hate crims and I have never heard about Bill I've only heard of Matthew Shepherd who was killed because he was gay also and I'm straight and I believe that all different types meaning color of gender of background should make a difference but I wish you the best in luck in life and people can't judge you only God could and I hate is so powerful I think that people don't really know the meaning to it yet.
Thank you so very much
Vanessa

      Tuesday, June 01, 2004  9:01:07 AM
Name: Michael Trower
E-Mail: yoshimitsu46@hotmail.com
Homepage:
Location: Elizabeth, South Australia
Comments: To all that may read this...
I read this story last year and it touched somewhere where nothing has touched before. I never met Bill and unfortanatly, i never will...
Its amazing how one person's story can touch so many people from all over the globe...
As a tribute to Bill... i wrote this poem for him and his family...
Why?
By Michael Trower.
Why is there love? Why is there hate?
Why do we fell? Why do we mate?
Why are we straight? Why are we bi?
Why cant a gay is a "normal" guy?
Why is the question! Why do we fell?
Why is the question! Why is this real?
Tomorrow we will wake up and again we try,
tomorrow we wake up and we will ask "Why"

      Monday, May 31, 2004  1:18:24 AM
Name: Lee Hutchinson
E-Mail:
Homepage: http://www.spica.co.uk/lee
Location:
Comments: Again I visit this wonderful and touching site. Today I am reading the past guestbook posts, and am touched by the people that have taken the time to write.
I too am gay but have been very fortunate in having found my confidence, thanks both to myself and to those that have touched my heart. For those that are struggling with thoughts, feelings and emotions, I hope you find your peace.
Please read and understand the story of Bill, take care to appreciate this is a World of difference, which makes it such a wonderful place. Think for a moment before you speak, becuase it's easy to affect others around you without thinking...
Take care.
Lee

      Sunday, May 30, 2004  7:20:01 PM
Name: Don Murphy
E-Mail: d.g.murphy@worldnet.att.net
Homepage:
Location: Santa Fe
Comments: Looking forward to a phone visit with you and Alec -- we'll give a call soon!
Blessings!
Don

      Wednesday, May 26, 2004  10:15:20 PM
Name: _mike_
E-Mail: mdibbets@yahoo.com
Homepage: http://members.lycos.co.uk/christiansandmuslims/
Location: In Jesus Christ, everywhere where He sen
Comments: Hi, I am Michael and I am a Christian.
I must say that when I read this story, that I can understand it and I feel sympathy for your loss. I am deeply sorry about it.
I would like to say, as a Christian I am against gays and lesbian sexual behaviour. God created man and woman to be married and to erm... "join" together.
I am not saying that gay and lesbian people are defenately going to hell because they are gay or lesbian. Sometimes people are born with a different thinking pattern than others(a friend of mine is one of those) and they can't do a thing about it.
I am saying that the sexual acts are against God because God created man and woman for a reason. Man and woman are created for eachother, and noone else.
Homosexual behaviour is against God.
My friend who is a homosexual, has decided to not "act" out his "natural" behaviour anymore and decided to go for God. This has earned him his salvation and he can now look upon God without doubt or guilt.
I wish to let you know that if you act out your homosexual nature, that you are sinning against the most high God.
If you can refrain yourself from that behaviour and stay pure, then you can come into the face of the almighty father God.
Jesus has died for your sins, and your sins He has suffered on the cross and the way to it.
Know what He did for you and repent. If you have children who are gay, teach them to restrain themselves and put their focus upon God. Let them pray for salvation from the temptation that satan puts on them.
If you are gay yourself, pray to God for forgiveness and pray for strength to resist temptation. Cut all bonds with other gay people you know. Otherwise you will be tempted to do it again.
Trust in the Lord, Jesus Christ, He who will come again, and pray that you will not have to explain to Him on judgement day why you did what you did because you are saved.
In Jesus Christ I bless you all,
Michael

      Wednesday, May 26, 2004  5:37:54 PM
Name: Michael B Deffendoll
E-Mail: upfrontboi@cablespeed.com
Homepage:
Location: Washington
Comments: I enjoyed the story. We (me and my lover of 29 years) are in the process of adopting a 14yr old boy. We see many things in him and one that he may be gay/bisexual. We don't care as we will love him unconditionally. He was sexually aboused by the mothers great uncle. The mother to this day does not understand by her action (denial) she added and caused her child to act out wrong. I pray every night that MY CHILD will know we love him and will be at his side at all times. Infact we encourage him to come to use every change we get. Thanks for your story and when the time is right we will have him read the story as well!
B and B

      Monday, May 24, 2004  8:58:36 PM
Name: Lily
E-Mail: redhottlips22@yahoo.com
Homepage:
Location: california
Comments: I am sorry for your loss. I had an uncle commit suicide and he was gay too. i also have a friend who is bisexual and have some cousins who are. before i really knew what it meant i used to say things like "thats gay" i have stopped that ever since i knew my uncle was gay. i think it is a stupid term to use. those boys that did the hate crime were wrong and they should realise what they did to Bill. they should really think about their actions and i am sure that hundreds of people around the world should too.

      Monday, May 24, 2004  6:06:48 PM
Name: Teresa Day
E-Mail: daybrewhaha@aol.com
Homepage:
Location: Colorado
Comments: My heart is breaking not only for you and your son and his courage but for me
and my son who I just found out is bisexual. Hate is my greatest fear. My son's sexuality doesn't scare me butlosing him to hate and ignorance does. Thank you for sharing this story.

      Monday, May 24, 2004  5:23:01 PM
Name: DESIREE
E-Mail: @vaulter@msn.com
Homepage:
Location: TEXAS
Comments: I AM DOING A SPEECH ABOUT HATE CRIMES AGAINST GAY AND LESBIAN'S. I CAME ACROSS YOUR STORY AND IT BROUGHT MANY TEARS TO MY EYES. I AM VERY SORRY FOR YOUR LOSS. I MY SELF AM A LESBIAN AND I CAME OUT AT THE AGE OF 16 AND IT WAS VERY HARD AT FIRST, BUT YOU WERE IN THE RIGHT FOR LOVING YOUR SON. MY PARENTS ACCEPT ME FOR WHO I AM AND THAT IS ALL THAT MATTERS TO ME. I AM JUST SORRY YOUR SON DID NOT FEEL THE SAME WAY. I HOPE MY SPEECH REACHES MANY YOUNG PEOPLE THE WAY YOUR SONS SPEECH DID.
THANKS FOR YOUR STORY.
DES.

      Monday, May 24, 2004  11:48:21 AM
Name: Rayne Welis
E-Mail: magonthehulkingdragon@yahoo.com
Homepage:
Location: Georgia
Comments: I am a 16 year old bisexual teen. i have been having trouble dealing with my sexuality and sometimes i feel suicidal. This story has touched me alot. I live in a rural town so its hard to find ppl like me. i often feel isolated. I am sorry about the familys loss

      Monday, May 24, 2004  1:52:12 AM
Name: Sandra Klumpp
E-Mail: chief_sandra@msn.com
Homepage:
Location:
Comments: The reason I'm reading this webpage is because my situation is very similar. I'm hated by my own mother and I've had it and don't know what to do, I can't emotionally deal with her hating me telling me what a loser I am. Suicide is the biggest thing on my mind. It's sad how some people act as if they have no heart. I'm sorry about Billy, he was probably a successful person who this world needed, just like me.

      Sunday, May 23, 2004  2:18:21 PM
Name: Carlos Michael Padilla
E-Mail: carlosmichael@cox.net
Homepage: http://www.geocities.com/cmdrnbriefs/index.html
Location: Tulsa, Oklahoma
Comments: I was deeply touched by this tribute to Bill. Thank you for allowing us to visit with Bill through this medium. I am working on a Power Point memorial called, "EIGHTEEN" dedicated to the memories of Barry Winchell, Fred Martinex, Robbie Kirkland, Billy Gaither, Arther Warren, Jacob Orosco, Allen Scindler, Bill Clayton, Bruce Michael, Gary Matson, Julio Rivera, Danny Overstreet, Winfield Mowder, Scott Amedure, Steen Fenrich, Brandon Teena, Matthew Shepard, and Joey Lipitz. I would be honored if you would allow me to include one or several photos of Bill and whatever information you are willing to provide on Bill (i.e., Date of Birth, likes, dislikes, etc.) Thank you very much.

      Friday, May 21, 2004  11:49:25 AM
Name: rod
E-Mail: rodstarr@blueyonder.co.uk
Homepage:
Location: england
Comments: i am so moved to read bills story..i to have been to the place which so upset bill......still do..life for me is not easy..i have a good partner but fear is the root of my problems..i hope i can get to feel good about myself...just for now? loving thoughts ...rod

      Thursday, May 20, 2004  2:22:42 PM
Name: LYNDA
E-Mail: lallenwa@yahoo.com
Homepage: http://myweb.ecomplanet.com/alle3721/home.htm
Location: Washington
Comments: I am deeply touched by Bill's story and wanted to extend my condolences. I will forward his story onto others. Good for you to put his story out there, I hope in his honor this will help another.

      Thursday, May 20, 2004  12:43:26 AM
Name: Thomas
E-Mail: corruptedcanine@yahoo.com
Homepage:
Location: Moore
Comments: I have visited this page many times and never said hello. It hits too close to home for me. I still don't know how I made it through the years of depression and hopelessness to get to where I am. I truly grieve for your loss as I know you do still. I wish the nation would wake up and realize the impact that their intolerance has on intelligent, sensitive people like Bill. Maybe one day.

      Wednesday, May 19, 2004  12:50:13 AM
Name: Chakiese
E-Mail: kiesecole@aol.com
Homepage:
Location: lithonia ga
Comments: Im so sorry about your son! Im doing a projrct on suicide. The exact topic is "teen suicide and the afterthoughts". But it really hurts me to see so many teens, committing suicide! Anyone for that matter. But when I read things like this it gets me all emotional. But Im really sorry about your son again!

      Tuesday, May 18, 2004  9:17:58 PM
Name: Gabi Clayton
E-Mail:
Homepage: http://www.youth-guard.org/gabi/respondex.html
Location: Olympia, WA
Comments: This new guestbook was started on 5/18/04. Links to pages with all the past responses to Bill's story are on the page link above.
Thank you so much for signing my guestbook.
Love, Gabi

 


 

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