Thursday,
December 11, 2003 3:17:42 PM |
Name: |
amanda |
E-Mail: |
van_aken85@yahoo.com |
Homepage: |
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Location: |
Redding, Ca |
Comments: |
I know that it
is hard to lose someone so precious to you i have to and
my BEST girl and guy friends are gay and i had really
only heard of the Matthew Shepard case and when i read
the case of Gabi Clayton i was in tears and now I am
starting to work with the gay community and showing all
the other people that its ok they are just like us!!! |
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Thursday,
December 11, 2003 3:17:42 PM |
Name: |
Shannon |
E-Mail: |
van_aken85@yahoo.com |
Homepage: |
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Location: |
Neversink |
Comments: |
im sorry to
hear about your son. i no its hard to lose a love one.
But it was problemly harder on him to let u no of his
sexualiy i no i did not tell my dad yet but my mom nos |
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Tuesday, December 09, 2003 3:27:20 PM |
Name: |
sasha |
E-Mail: |
anneliesa15@yahoo.com |
Homepage: |
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Location: |
texas |
Comments: |
I'm doing a
debate in my speech class over gay rights. I've read
alot of personal stories and so many of them are the
same.{no offense,please] It seems that the children are
coming out with their homesexuality and are being
persicuted for it. I believe that there should be
stronger hate crime laws. Yet, in the beginning of
Bill's story it seems insinuated that he was taken
advantage of at a place where you thought he was safe
and in return was greatly traumatized. I'm a 16yr old
female and my greatest fear is that with all of this gay
movement and forcing us to learn and accept it you will
have teenagers questioning themselves and many will find
themselves in situations likes your son did. I just wish
that everyone would look at the entire picture and that
EVERYONE not be so biased and really consider the dier
consequences of everything. |
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Tuesday, December 09, 2003 10:10:50 AM |
Name: |
Selena Morris |
E-Mail: |
girlsforscience@yahoo.com |
Homepage: |
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Location: |
Soldotna, AK |
Comments: |
I was glad to
find Bill on this website. I came across it
accidentally. I went to highschool with Noel, and came
to know Bill when he approached me in our art teacher's
room one day. We talked a little. He stopped me after
class, and was going to say something. I smiled, and
then he stopped, and didn't continue. I've always
wondered what he was going to say, but being shy I never
asked. This didn't stop me from admireing him, however.
He used to make these hats that I thought were
wonderful, and I liked how creative he was. He was in my
heart from that moment on. We went to a school that
wasn't a pioneer in valueing differences. Those years
were hard, and I don't miss them. When I was getting
coffee one morning as a young adult, I saw a flyer for
Bill's passing. I was shocked, and upset. It's hard to
explain, but I cared deeply for him and how he was
doing. Bill, his brother, and his friends were wonderful
people I have plenty of good feelings about and
memories. I cried a long time that day. I've never
forgotten him, and I share his story with others.
Thankyou for posting a website in memory to him. He was
special, and it was nice to see his picture. I know
where to come now when I need a moment. |
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Monday, December 08, 2003 12:18:53 AM |
Name: |
+Benedict XVI,
OSB |
E-Mail: |
cittiavaticano@yahoo.com |
Homepage: |
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Location: |
California |
Comments: |
I'm
touched...and deeply committed to help this cause in my
own community, I vowed 6 months ago after being hurt by
someone i cared for on grounds of 'christianity' to help
rid our society of homophobia, im a Christian and i also
try and spread the fact that homophobia isnt Christian,
and that God himself doesnt care of sexuality but of Us,
we are His children and He sent His son to forgive our
sins, not our sexual selves. im a christian, and also
gay. may God bless you always. please contact me and ill
do everything i can to spread Bills story here in my
community. |
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Saturday, December 06, 2003 9:25:53 PM |
Name: |
novata jones |
E-Mail: |
marionsamani@aol.com |
Homepage: |
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Location: |
philadelphia
pa, |
Comments: |
I am sorry for
your lost |
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Friday, December 05, 2003 2:54:26 PM |
Name: |
Bobbie |
E-Mail: |
bjk451@aol.com |
Homepage: |
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Location: |
Norfolk, VA |
Comments: |
Hello. I came
along Bill's story looking for information on a research
paper on hate crimes against homosexuals. This story
really touched me i am deeply sorry you lost your son. i
thank you for putting this out to the public to notice
what is going on in the world when no one is looking.
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Thursday, December 04, 2003 8:51:07 PM |
Name: |
spike smith |
E-Mail: |
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Homepage: |
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Location: |
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Comments: |
hello to all.
i read this story after a suicidal gay friend of mine
was put back in the hospital. i'd like to thank the
parents of bill for creating this website, it really did
help the coping prcess for me. i send condolences to
them and to all people who have had sucicidal friends.
thanks again for creating this site and just a reminder,
to the gays out there, don't be afraid to let people
know. we are who we are. thanks, spike smith |
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Wednesday, December 03, 2003 1:43:35 PM |
Name: |
Louise |
E-Mail: |
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Homepage: |
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Location: |
Dublin,
Ireland |
Comments: |
I'm a friend
of Tyrone Tidwell (who signed this below).I was putting
his name into Yahoo to see what it came up with(I'm
stalking you Tyrone!..actually I'm just bored in work)
and one of the things was this.Besides being an
impressive website,there's a lot of
determination,thought,hard work,courage and love gone
into this.Not everybody would use such a tragic incident
and turn it into something from which some good may
come.Bill may never come back in person,but I guarantee
he's looking down smiling,thinking you did something
really good.Because you did.He's proud of you.This is
what he would have wanted.Well done. |
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Wednesday, December 03, 2003 1:25:03 PM |
Name: |
Lisa Morgan |
E-Mail: |
toolsmagdalena@hotmail.com |
Homepage: |
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Location: |
Indiana |
Comments: |
Wow... I'm so
sorry to hear that such horrible things led your sun to
do that. It's such a tragedy that something like that
can happen to someone so young that has so much ahead of
them and has the ambitions to do so many things with
their life. As a bisexual female in a small town I am
forced to deal with comments all day. But I've taught
myself not to let it get to me and after reading your
story I have the strength to keep going. Thank you so
much for sharing. |
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Wednesday, December 03, 2003 12:36:27 AM |
Name: |
Cameron Carson |
E-Mail: |
znypenguin@netscape.net |
Homepage: |
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Location: |
Hawaii |
Comments: |
hi, my name is
Cameron. i am a gay male from hawaii.i very much feel
for what happened. the story is moving and will make
alot of people think. what happened to your son wasnt
called for, i myself have been discriminated against,
beaten up, called names... i used to speak with a
counselor about all of it...im doing my best to help my
friend that are homosexual, or bisexual that need to
talk to someone. i've tried to commit suicide, i was
almost raped my one of my neighbors, it was Xmas of '99.
i've never told anyone the truth about what happened...
(no one knew about my sexuality)
in the eigth grade, i made a presentation about being
homosexual, it was my "coming out" to
everyone. my presentation was over two hours long,
all-though i couldnt say the entire thing because school
ended 90mins into my presentation. from then..after the
bell had rung i quickly ended what i was saying...i got
high-fives and loud cheering and clapping from everyone
in the room. they respected what i did. other people had
heard about what i did, and some made rude comments to
me at school, i had support of friends and
counselors...now, it's been about 2 1/2 years since i
came out, and i still have alot of support from
people...
i very much wanted to say God bless you, you are very
strong people...what happened to your son, will not be
forgotten. your family is forever in my prayers. Angels,
(your son) will be with you always. he is your guardian
angel now. and thankyou for letting me share this
letter/note with you. im here for constant support. feel
free to email me.
God Bless,
Cameron Carson, age 15 Hawaii |
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Tuesday, December 02, 2003 12:47:27 PM |
Name: |
W. Julian
South |
E-Mail: |
wmjgas59@hotmail.com |
Homepage: |
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Location: |
Portland OR |
Comments: |
It breaks my
heart to hear that anyone has to loose his or her child.
To loose that child to depression (which as you know is
anger turned inward) is profoundly devastating. I
haven’t read all the documents available, but you
don’t really mention how you and your husband Alec are
holding up. It would be a great injustice if you two
lost each other because of what happened with Bill.
I too was a depressed bi kid. I too got beat up on a
regular basis (and told by virtually everyone I should
“get used to it”). But an odd thing happened. I grew
up, moved to a big city and got therapy and a really
good drug regimen. I’m now as well adjusted as a
person can be when that person lives in this kind of a
world. I go through long bursts of activism followed by
more introspection.
I’ve changed how I view myself. First I was bi, then
gay, and then bi again. Now I realize I really love both
genders but will probably never really be happy in a
long-term relationship with a woman. I had the good
fortune to have a son, but he died a long time ago. I
often wonder what his life would have been like.
Probably like you agonizing about how Bill would be
these days. What he’d be doing. I completely
sympathize.
Another way I’ve changed my view of myself is, I no
longer see myself as broken. I have been forced by the
things I’ve gone through (sexual abuse, rape while in
the military, etc.) to react differently than most folks
would to everyday stimuli. But I am not broken. I only
wish Bill could have seen that coping is better than
dying.
I understand getting tired. I really know the feeling
that things will never get better. But if he’d given
life a chance, it would have gotten better. His leaving
you saddens me, and leaving such a huge pain on your
doorstep I wish would end. As a good Jewish man I cannot
help but add:
You are in my prayers. May G*d bless you and all your
family. May you find a measure of peace in this troubled
time. |
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Monday, December 01, 2003 5:15:27 AM |
Name: |
Ryan |
E-Mail: |
rpmarchand@hotmail.com |
Homepage: |
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Location: |
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Comments: |
Hey this is
the sadest story but im sure you get that alot. And
there are many people in your shoe's your not alone. I
cried to read this story and had to stop and get a
tissue every minute but thats not the point :)and silly
me i was also listening to sad music at the time :). I
really dont know what to say im scared if i say
something stupid. But i also came out to my mother a
little while ago, im also bisexual. She still love's me
but im sure she hates the idea of it but im ok with
that. Dont get me wrong she is the most loven person i
know as im sure you are and were. She still calls me a
little rascal at 18 :). I love what your doing and am so
proud of you. You seem so strong This must sound so
stupid, i cant really write or type so if theres typos
just ignore them :). Ya bill had some courage telling
people i dont know if i could or ever tell anyone else
then my mother i dont really have very close freinds
like bill im not very good at makeing freinds. But that
enough about me jess did that sound shallow or what im
was talking about myself half the time god. Ok i better
go before i make more of an ass of myself well email me
id love it..
PS: Keep up the swesome work |
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Friday, November 28, 2003 2:37:30 PM |
Name: |
Adam |
E-Mail: |
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Homepage: |
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Location: |
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Comments: |
I have
something to say to all you homophobic pricks out there
who say that it is wrong to love. I tell you right now I
would love to see something like that happen to you so
you can see the pain that we go through. I am an openly
gay man and I can't stand you people. Homophobes are
pathetic. I am sorry to hear about what happend to bill
and it made me cry the whole way through. Please
continue your work as I believe it makes the LGBT
community as a whole proud. I have very understanding
parents as well and I am glad that he did also. I hope
that one day we can rid the world of homophobes but I
don't see that happening in the near future. Keep up the
good fight. |
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Monday, November 24, 2003 7:08:51 PM |
Name: |
vanessa vargas |
E-Mail: |
consaboratequila@hotmail.com |
Homepage: |
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Location: |
los angeles,
ca |
Comments: |
Hello , my
name is VAnessa . I was researching about teenager
suicide for my speech class and let me tell you why I am
writing to you right now. I entered www.1000deaths.com
and from those 1000 i chose bill's picture cuz i thouht
he was cute and your story touched my heart . My speech
is due today . I am not ready but I am sure I will talk
about your son's death ok? because I have a brother who
is gay and I wouldnt stand people mess with him . I am
so proud of your work , i love the web page . Keep
working on it , your son will appreciate it . Take care
and if you can respond to me that would be cool I just
wanna know the end of your story . How did you get over
it ? If you could , but i know it could be impossible .
ANyway please write back . Thanks for sharing your son's
memories to us . God Bless You ok ? |
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Sunday, November 23, 2003 10:42:21 PM |
Name: |
Janice
Middleton |
E-Mail: |
janice5202@hotmail.com |
Homepage: |
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Location: |
Wichita, Ks. |
Comments: |
The world lost
a very bright light with the death of Bill. I am so
sorry for your loss. |
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Saturday, November 22, 2003 4:43:03 AM |
Name: |
jw tahoe |
E-Mail: |
jw_tahoe@yahoo.com |
Homepage: |
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Location: |
slidell,
louisiana |
Comments: |
Gabi,
You and Alec have suffered the worst loss that anyone
can ever suffer and for the worst reason. I can't fully
comprehend the depth of your pain and anger but to the
extent that I do understand it, I share it with you. All
of us are diminished by Bill's death.
When I read and reread Bill's story today I was again
horrified like I thought any decent person must be even
though I had already read it several months ago. For the
first time, I read the guest book comments and saw among
the condolences, virulent entries from Christian
Terrorists continuing to spew the same kind of hateful
venom that drove Bill past his limit. That they would
come here to desecrate this site proves how evil they
are. I wish we could just dismiss them as kooks and
cranks, but we know that their hate will continue, their
attacks will continue and their victims will continue to
suffer in many ways for many years. I can't understand
how such hatefilled hearts can survive their own evil.
Thank you for maintaining this memorial to Bill so
that others can learn from it. May you and all who mourn
Bill find peace.
jw |
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Friday, November 21, 2003 2:44:15 PM |
Name: |
Ashley |
E-Mail: |
ageary_444@hotmail.com |
Homepage: |
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Location: |
Forestville,
ny |
Comments: |
I LOVE YOu |
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Thursday, November 20, 2003 8:50:45 PM |
Name: |
Kim Gray |
E-Mail: |
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Homepage: |
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Location: |
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Comments: |
This touched
my heart in so many ways. I hope that one day nobody
will be afraid to walk the streets. Thank you for
sharing this story with me and the rest of the world. |
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Wednesday, November 19, 2003 8:22:33 PM |
Name: |
gabi bahnam |
E-Mail: |
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Homepage: |
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Location: |
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Comments: |
hey i am very
sorry to here what happend i think he is kinda cute
there but he will be missed here so i hope you have the
best of luck and i know how it is to loose a loved one i
just lost my mom and im only thirteen i lost her of
cancer in three places she past away 10/9/03
love alway
gabrielle
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Tuesday, November 18, 2003 9:27:20 AM |
Name: |
Jennifer |
E-Mail: |
jeffbuckleyrules@msn.com |
Homepage: |
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Location: |
Canada |
Comments: |
Gabby,
when i read this, my eyes water'd so much, its aweful to
hear about someone that has been treated so badly at
such a young age and older for there sexuality or for
the way the look.. etc, it Just makes me so sick and
feel ill inside, i think ur an amazing women for wat you
have delt with and wat you have done to keep ur sons
memory alive...
keep fighting!
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Tuesday, November 18, 2003 7:17:22 AM |
Name: |
San Wages |
E-Mail: |
twospirit22000@yahoo.com |
Homepage: |
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Location: |
N.E.Texas |
Comments: |
A sight well
done.I feel for your loss, & the loss of the
community.And I thank you for the work you have done
with this sight. God bless you. |
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Monday, November 17, 2003 2:12:05 PM |
Name: |
BOb |
E-Mail: |
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Homepage: |
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Location: |
california |
Comments: |
YEAH, the
phony George is right! Gays are sick man. But I feel bad
for Bill. the guy posting all those messages was a
little extreme, but he is right too! |
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Monday, November 17, 2003 2:09:47 PM |
Name: |
George W. Bush |
E-Mail: |
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Homepage: |
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Location: |
Washington
D.C. |
Comments: |
FELLOW
AMERICANS. WHAT GABI IS DOING IS DISGUSTING. BILL
DESERVED TO DIE!!! WHOEVER POSTED THOSE MESSAGES WAS A
LEADER AND A BRAVE AMERICAN. WE MUST RISE UP. FREE AT
LAST! FREE AT LAST!! GOD ALLMIGHTY WE IS FREE AT LAST! |
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Sunday, November 16, 2003 7:43:16 PM |
Name: |
Tamara Parten |
E-Mail: |
i_luv_tinkerbell2@hotmail.com |
Homepage: |
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Location: |
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Comments: |
Gabi,
You recently came to Olympia High School to speak for
our STAND assembly. I just really wanted to thank you
again for doing that for us. I am also extremely sorry
for how insensitve the youth are today. Thanks you so
much and just remebr to stay strong.
Sincerly,
Tamara Parten
Olympia High School STAND Member |
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Sunday, November 16, 2003 3:39:17 PM |
Name: |
Jack |
E-Mail: |
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Homepage: |
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Location: |
SOUTH AFRICA |
Comments: |
You are a very
brave lady , and I thank you for what you are doing for
the gay people of this world. You will think by the
sound of it that it is only homosexual people that can
contract HIV, but hey its time they face the facts. 600
people dies everyday in South Africa alone due to Hiv ,
and they are NOT all homosexual. |
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Friday, November 14, 2003 1:27:01 AM |
Name: |
Catherine
Dawdy |
E-Mail: |
cmdawdy@comcast.net |
Homepage: |
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Location: |
Olympia, WA |
Comments: |
After all
these years, I thought -- for no other reason than I
love you more than ever my dear friend -- I would sign
your guest book and let you know that I had no idea when
I met you in 1988 that I would come to love you and care
for you as much as I do. Go figure, eh? You're
beautiful. Keep up the good work and I will too in the
ways I do. Love from your Catherine, otherwise know as
#1, and second mom to the Clayton men. |
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Wednesday, November 12, 2003 4:38:23 PM |
Name: |
emre |
E-Mail: |
mire_grc@yahoo.com |
Homepage: |
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Location: |
TURKEY, Ankara |
Comments: |
Hi from the
Turkey.İm 18 years old gay and im very sorry about
Bill and i cried while reading the Bill`s story.The
worst thing is that i know when they kill a gay in
turkey the gay person`s family dont own their child or
his gayness and probably they learn their child`s
gayness from the police. |
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Wednesday, November 12, 2003 1:41:00 PM |
Name: |
fırat |
E-Mail: |
cenkhayyam@hotmail.com |
Homepage: |
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Location: |
Turkey |
Comments: |
It is very
hard to express my feeling.In all over the world similar
stories have been told.Coming out is not only a need but
also it is very curicial.The political part of this
issue is so much important.If we can not fight for
ourselves, the stories like Bill's story will
increase.There are many lessons that can be taken form
this story.
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Tuesday, November 11, 2003 7:48:52 PM |
Name: |
Daniel |
E-Mail: |
wiccadictator@yahoo.com |
Homepage: |
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Location: |
erie |
Comments: |
i read the
"Bill's Story" and i broke out in tears when i
read it. i told my friends about the story so they read
the it also and were so angrey with the boys who did
that to him! i go through hell every day at school and
on the street( not at home though), but nothing like
this. anyway, i want to share a story of my own. i just
"came out" this year, 10th grade, and everyone
was fine with it or so i thought. so not thinking of
what could happen i walked home. so i started walking
home with some of my friend and had no idea that some
one had a problem with me. we were almost home by this
time but we had to pass a group of kids from are school.
thinking nothing of it we passed them. secons later im
being called a fag, man lover and other thing i dont
want to write. well i ignored the coments and so did my
friends. now by this time we were far ahead, all of a
sudden i get a rock thrown at the back of my head. so i
told them to f... off and leave me alone. that didnt
stop them, they through rock until i got home. i didnt
tell my mom or dad because they dont know yet, but i did
tell the vice prin. and he said he would take care of
it, ya right. two day later he told me it was our word
agains theirs, even though i had black and blue mark on
my head and back. so im afraid of what could happen.
reading about him made me aware of what kind of people
are out there. but there are homophobic people every
where
thank you for listening |
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Tuesday, November 11, 2003 12:28:52 PM |
Name: |
John |
E-Mail: |
gunnyding@aol.com |
Homepage: |
http://members.aol.com/gunnyding/ |
Location: |
USA |
Comments: |
God bless you
mom. I am sorry for your loss and I am proud of you for
your courage and determination. in love,John |
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Monday, November 10, 2003 2:35:54 PM |
Name: |
Alley |
E-Mail: |
alleylovesafi@hotmail.com |
Homepage: |
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Location: |
Salt Lake
City, UT |
Comments: |
Yes, being gay
is not a bad thing. People make me sick by telling other
people that gay is bad. I for one, am a full blown
bisexual. |
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Thursday, November 06, 2003 5:55:57 PM |
Name: |
Robin |
E-Mail: |
summer_chick154@yahoo.com |
Homepage: |
http://www.yahoo.com |
Location: |
Wisconsin |
Comments: |
Bills story
was very touching. It is so sad that people can't except
people just because of their sexuality. I live in a
small sheltered community and when the school started
the Gay/Straight alliance, the students posted things
like 'FAGS' along with other hatefull words
discriminating Bisexuals. This upset me so much, and I
wish that I would have done something to stop it. I hope
that all of the people that read Bill's story does
something to help stop hate crimes in their own
community. I was inspired to do something, what, I don't
know yet. But I do know that these such things have to
stop. I wish you and your family luck throughout the
rest or you life. May you always find happiness and love
in the people around you. |
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Thursday, November 06, 2003 4:59:39 PM |
Name: |
Perry Hahn |
E-Mail: |
n/a |
Homepage: |
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Location: |
Olympia High
School |
Comments: |
Sorry to hear
about your son. Wish I could meet him today. I bet he
was a great guy.
Perry Hahn
Olympia High School 2005 |
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Thursday, November 06, 2003 12:02:08 AM |
Name: |
Linda Simmons |
E-Mail: |
yorkielady1@hotmail.com |
Homepage: |
http://www.msn.net |
Location: |
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Comments: |
Bill's Story
really hit me between the eyes(or definitely my heart).
I ache for your family's loss and, although I cannot
feel what you continue to feel, I am so grateful that I
have been allowed to read not only Bill's Story, but his
Mother's. My daughter has come out relatively late in
life(almost 30) and I have had a rough time accepting,
with understanding, the oreintation that you and your
husband seem so at ease with. I have, in the past year,
accepted her decision, and love her dearly. After
reading your touching and loving account of your son's
life, I feel fortunate to be blessed with my own
daughter's life, regardless of her sexual orientation.
We made her....all of her....and we will love her as she
is. Thank you! |
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Wednesday, November 05, 2003 11:16:43 PM |
Name: |
darcy |
E-Mail: |
mirrorslie@hotmail.com |
Homepage: |
http://www.geocities.com/cutterslut |
Location: |
ohio |
Comments: |
kids can be so
cruel. this site made me cry, it was so touching. its an
amazing and rare thing you're doing... loving someone so
completely, even when they've gone. i pray that this
will save someone else's life, and i thank you for this
site. |
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Wednesday, November 05, 2003 5:07:20 PM |
Name: |
Eric |
E-Mail: |
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Homepage: |
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Location: |
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Comments: |
You are
amazing, and strong. |
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Wednesday, November 05, 2003 10:04:12 AM |
Name: |
David Hamby |
E-Mail: |
divad68@yahoo.com |
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Location: |
Wartburg,
Tennessee |
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I happend upon
your page this morning and read Bill's story. I found it
very painful to read but also hopeful. I am a 35yr old
living in a very predjudiced and redneck town, and I
know very well what Bill was going through. I am only
out to close friends for this reason. But I have been
harrased all my life because of the asumption of my
being gay. I would like to thank you for all you have
done for our community and all you will do in the
future. Reading this has convinced me to get more
involved in stopping hate crimes. Thank you very much,
David. |
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Wednesday, November 05, 2003 1:23:08 AM |
Name: |
Gabi Clayton |
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Homepage: |
http://www.youth-guard.org/gabi/respondex.html |
Location: |
Olympia, WA |
Comments: |
This new
improved guestbook was started on 11/5/03. Links to
pages with all the past responses to Bill's story are on
the page link above. Thank you so much for signing my
guestbook.
Love, Gabi |
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