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Gabi Clayton's Guestbook #39 - From 9/2/02 to 10/18/02
Note: This guestbook reads from the bottom of the page up. -- Gabi
| Friday 10/18/2002
4:59:39am |
| Name: |
K. Worrall-Clare |
| E-Mail: |
kurtcl@hotmail.com |
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na |
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The Republic of South
Africa |
| Comments: |
Your beautiful son and
his tragic story made news this end of the world. This together
with the equally sad details of Matthew Sheppard's death had a
great many of us, weap with despair. Your loss must be profound,
as I can see from your story that you had invested a great deal
in your son. Please know that you have reaped an inheritance
that cannot be measured, at least not in words. Your son in
known in South Africa, and his story is not lost. Together we
stand, assured that one day, somehow things will change. Until
then, let no man be silent.
God bless and keep you safe. |
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| Thursday 10/17/2002
12:32:49am |
| Name: |
Debbie and Lacey |
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| Location: |
granbury, tx |
| Comments: |
Sorry for your loss.
We are doing a report for our government class against hate
crimes and we have decided to use your story. Your son is an
inspiration against hate crimes. |
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| Thursday 10/17/2002
7:34:35am |
| Name: |
Louis |
| E-Mail: |
garnonline@hotmail.com |
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| Location: |
USA |
| Comments: |
It's sad story.
However, I think his story will teach the others whom will have
the same problems or someone parents to understand and more be
careful about their children who will have the same problems. I
would like to say " thank you to shair this story with
others" God bless you. |
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| Tuesday 10/15/2002
5:24:58pm |
| Name: |
keith |
| E-Mail: |
sexystud4061@aol.com |
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| Comments: |
I forgot to add my
email address. so here it is sexystud4061@aol.com
thank you |
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| Tuesday 10/15/2002
5:20:46pm |
| Name: |
Keith |
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| Location: |
St. Louis MO |
| Comments: |
My name is Keith. I
will be 17 in a few days and I am gay. I have read the story you
have written on your son's life and sit here overwhemled by a
feeling of numness. I am not openly gay and all but a close few
of my friends know I am. After dealing with serve bouts of
depression and suicidal eposiodes in my early teenager years I
am afraid of what the future holds. My entire life up until a
few years ago I was physical and emotional abused by my father
on a regular basis. My mother and sister ( who is 2 years older
than me) were to afraid to stop and help me. No they were not
abused by my father but helpless none the less. The reasons I
was abused I do not know. I do know they most likely did not
span from my sexual preference. (Probably because I never told
them.) A little over a year ago on October 6, 2001 my father
made up his mind to pack up and leave. Leaving my mom, sister,
and me to survive on our own. About six months later my sister
moved out. Til this day my father has never been held
accountable for the years of abuse he put me through. About 2
months after my father left I went to a clinic and told my
story. To my defeat I was at the time on drugs. My mother and
father used this against me claiming the drugs had made me crazy
and I was sent to a hosiptal for 7 months. After being home for
a few months now I am truly frightend by what the future holds.
I my self have been the target of abuse could not imagine how I
would emotional handle abuse because of my sexual perference.
After reading your story I for one refuse to give up on life.
This world can be a horrible place. And after sufering through
my own personal hell I proudly stand up and say, I, Keith, will
proudly STAND UP and join you in your fight to stop hate crimes.
Your story has effected me in a way I could never express to
you. I truly belive you must be a very strong person to share
your story with the world after what you have been through. I
can say nothing more to you than, thank you. Your story,
thoughts, and feelings have given me hope, in knowing my fight
to stop hate crimes as well as abuse, is a fight I will not face
alone. This in it's self is hope enough to go on. I wish and
pray that you have the best of luck in your fight. And know,
that one person, can make a difference. Thank You! |
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| Monday 10/14/2002
2:57:43pm |
| Name: |
Joe Ball |
| E-Mail: |
jkbouncingball@yahoo.com |
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Thank you for sharing
Bill's story and the story of your family. You are brave and
exemplary in standing up for love and against hate. I am sorry
for your loss and our loss, but you are making a positive
difference.
I hope one day to also share the message through some medium
that communicates to the hearts of many people, gay and
straight. Thanks for all your love and efforts. |
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| Monday 10/14/2002
10:58:03am |
| Name: |
Siobhan |
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| Location: |
St. paul MN |
| Comments: |
I am really sorry
about your son but this website is great to inform people of how
terrible and important hate crimes are and how they cannot just
be forgotten. |
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| Friday 10/11/2002
2:47:31am |
| Name: |
sooz |
| E-Mail: |
suzi@s00z.com |
| Homepage: |
http://www.s00z.com |
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http://www.s00z.com |
| Location: |
Belfast |
| Comments: |
hate crimes against
gay/bi/trans catholic protestant coloured or any sort of person
is unacceptable.
im not a christian, but i belived that your son is in a better
place. it is painful to think that the death of Bill and so many
others like him has to happen for people to take notice of the
problems in this world.
I'm bisexual, and I have been the victim of sexual abuse and
torment for being who I am. Thankfully I have a loving
girlfriend to stand by my side and help me through the bad days.
The memory of your son will stay alive. I want to do all that I
can to change the world and open peoples minds. We're all human
and all capable of love. Its time thats what we started doing,
standing together as the human race. Breaking the boundaries and
welcoming everyone who is an individual with open arms. I do not
feel hatred to those who tormented your son, or myself. I only
feel pity that they have to live in a world so closed and narrow
and they do not know what beauty lies inside each and every one
of us. They get stuck on the lables and refuse to accept anyone
that little bit different to themselves as a person. |
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| Thursday 10/10/2002
5:12:58pm |
| Name: |
Romeo Casanova |
| E-Mail: |
romeo_casanova56@hotmail.com |
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| Location: |
guelph |
| Comments: |
hey wuz up sorry about
what happened to your son they should of never did that just
because he was gay |
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| Thursday 10/10/2002
12:39:41am |
| Name: |
Jennifer Seidel |
| E-Mail: |
seidelj@us.ibm.com |
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| Location: |
New York |
| Comments: |
Sitting at my desk in
New York, I am having trouble remembering how I stumbled across
this web site.
But am glad that I did.
Real, true, unconditional, and never ending love does exist. I
am so sorry for you're loss.
Words cannot do justice to the emotions I felt while reading
this story.
Thank you for sharing, and behalf of so many others out there,
thank you for fighting for what you believe in. |
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| Thursday 10/10/2002
10:41:42am |
| Name: |
teesa |
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chalk619@yahoo.com |
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| Thursday 10/10/2002
7:31:59am |
| Name: |
chris |
| E-Mail: |
chrisbrayman23@msn.com |
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| Location: |
south carolina |
| Comments: |
I finished reading
your son bills story and I just want you to know How very sorry
i am that he had to go through so much shit. Im a open gay male
23 year old male. I just wish there was more people in the world
like you.
you and yor family will always be in my prayers and bill's story
will never be forgoten.
love
chris |
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| Tuesday 10/08/2002
2:45:11pm |
| Name: |
Matt |
| E-Mail: |
akab26@aol.com |
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| Location: |
Home |
| Comments: |
I like it a lot i no
ur feelings |
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| Monday 10/07/2002
7:57:32pm |
| Name: |
Cody McKinney |
| E-Mail: |
themackid@excite.com |
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| Location: |
Nashville, TN |
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| Monday 10/07/2002
7:48:55pm |
| Name: |
T. Holcomb |
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| Location: |
Georgia |
| Comments: |
Your son wasn't
"killed" by the *fear* of homosexuality, he COMMITTED
suicide, that means *HE* killed HIMSELF. His lack of will, and
insecurity with himself is what killed him. |
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| Monday 10/07/2002
2:38:59pm |
| Name: |
Layla Rosheen
Smethurst |
| E-Mail: |
Cream83@Lycos.co.uk |
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| Location: |
WestYorkshire, England |
| Comments: |
Reading Bills story my
heart ached, my mind blanked, my head spinned and i cried,
because I was touched, but mainly because I was connected,
connected to the feeling and the pain that everyone of my
Gay,Bisexual or Lesbian 'brother and sisters' will one day feel
in their lives. The world is a nasty, cruel place, we are living
a constant battle..a battle to be free, safe and equal, during
this battle many of our strongest and bravest soldiers will
fall, but for everyone of our fallen soldiers ten more of us
will carry on fighting. We will win and we will rise above
homophobia. Gay pride...Love Layla xxx |
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| Sunday 10/06/2002
11:59:11pm |
| Name: |
Bemay |
| E-Mail: |
bemay78@hotmail.com |
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| Comments: |
Bill's story deeply
touched my heart...
It is really great to see that you were such understanding
parents for him.He is in a wonderful place now & he is safe.
Thank you for sharing your story |
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| Saturday 10/05/2002
10:51:51pm |
| Name: |
Bob |
| E-Mail: |
Bigfreddy3@hotmail.com |
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| Comments: |
Dear Mrs. Clayton,
Ive never really posted anything before, but i feel like i
should. Earlier today i got in a heated argument with my father
over homosexuality in general. It ended with him telling me that
homosexuals were nothing, and they were all going to hell, and
he hopes they all die. He doesnt know that i am bi-sexual. I
feel like im in the middle of your sons story, and im just
reliving it. I am soo tired of coping. if i could have one wish,
just ONE wish, it would be to be like everyone else. Normal. I
know that being bi-sexual is me, but i just hope sometimes that
this wasn't. That I wasn't me. Well, I went on the internet to
find some info on GLB teen suicide. I was on a website and i saw
your sons name. I clicked on it, and i read your story. I wish i
could say that it triggered some miracle, and now everything is
perfect. But it didnt. Things are still the same, im still Bi.
But i just wanted to tell you that if more people were as aware
as you are than the world would be such a better place. I can
relate to your son soo much, i feel like i know him. I wish i
could of known him, but i can't. I am just glad that out of such
a tragedy, a blessing like you can come. I needed that. ALL of
us "Bill's" needed that... |
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| Saturday 10/05/2002
8:36:32pm |
| Name: |
Gina |
| E-Mail: |
gina@hardtruth.net |
| Homepage: |
The Hard Truth |
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http://hardtruth.net |
| Location: |
Ohio |
| Comments: |
I don't get it. If
your hubby is bi-sexual, you possible are?, and your *housemate*
is a lesbian and like a second mother to the kids, why would he
have been afraid of your reaction?
Gina |
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| Friday 10/04/2002
3:51:00pm |
| Name: |
Nhan Thai |
| E-Mail: |
nhan_thai@hotmail.com |
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| Location: |
Seattle, wA |
| Comments: |
Dear Mr. and Mrs.
Clayton,
My name is Nhan Thai. I'm not sure at which event I met you but
I have your card with the website you posted in honoring your
son Bill. Revisiting the site, once again I'm deeply touched and
thank you for speaking out for all GLBT members and their love
ones. |
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| Thursday 10/03/2002
6:25:21pm |
| Name: |
Ashley |
| E-Mail: |
ashleyann2213@yahoo.com |
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| Location: |
NY |
| Comments: |
I am lost for words. I
have absolutely no clue what you are going through, I have never
been part of a hate crime..and i hope i never am. But the world
today is so cruel..I'm sure at some point everyone will be part
of one or a victim of one. Im sorry, i am really not trying to
make light of it...I just dont know what to say. I just wanted
to say I am sorry, and that i think you are amazing for having
the strength to write this to the world. |
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| Wednesday 10/02/2002
10:58:06am |
| Name: |
Jennifer Day |
| E-Mail: |
jld414@jwu.edu |
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| Location: |
Johnson and Wales
Universtiy RI |
| Comments: |
I cried reading your
story. I am a very strong supproter of gay rights and stopping
hate crimes. I my self am not gay but I have many close freinds
and family that are. Your strengh is amazing and I wish there
were more people like you who speak out and love thier child
even if society says they are wrong. |
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| Wednesday 10/02/2002
9:13:23am |
| Name: |
Ben Croft |
| E-Mail: |
boftysound@lycos.co.uk |
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| Location: |
Milton Keynes-England |
| Comments: |
Hi there Gabi.
Firstly, I would like to say how sorry i am for what happened
with your son. I hope you are safe in the knowledge that he
can't wait to see you all again, and indeed will in due time. My
name is Benjamin Croft and I am a 19 yr old University student
currently studying in Birmingham and am doing a project on the
importance of encouraging people to be more tolerant towards
different cultures and/ or diversity within cultures. As part of
the project I am to do a workshop, and would love to use the
information on the website reguarding your sons life as part of
my work. I hope you do not mind as it is for a good cause and
will hopefully open some peoples minds. Take care Ben x |
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| Tuesday 10/01/2002
1:08:58pm |
| Name: |
Claudia Gomez |
| E-Mail: |
easyworkig@aol.com |
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| Location: |
El Paso, TX |
| Comments: |
Your son is now in
heaven with god. And what you are doing is wonderful. Keep up
the good work. There are lots of people who need to learn about
this. |
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| Monday 09/30/2002
9:21:41am |
| Name: |
Amanda Harris |
| E-Mail: |
dont have one |
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| Comments: |
I am a bisexual female
who could not stop crying during your story. I am probably ten
times a better person now than ever. I think I really am able to
express myself now. In my town, girls being with other girls is
sexy- I am gonna do everything I can to express to people your
story and what I've gone through-Rape also. You seem very stong-
but if you ever need to talk-I'm here and so is god-Love you
always-bi and prode of it. |
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| Monday 09/30/2002
8:08:16am |
| Name: |
Jose Antonio
DeSantiago |
| E-Mail: |
tdesantiago@elp.rr.com |
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| Location: |
El Paso ,Texas USA |
| Comments: |
Sorry about
Bill....and Congratulations to you for being so
understanding...and let's not forget...How strong you
are....Good luck in your task to fight hate and to conquer
tolerance... |
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| Sunday 09/29/2002
9:29:41pm |
| Name: |
Dean |
| E-Mail: |
iwannakissya@hotmail.com |
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| Location: |
austraila |
| Comments: |
i am gay and i love
cock, and i fuck all my gay mates
i love orgies |
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| Sunday 09/29/2002
6:23:19am |
| Name: |
David |
| E-Mail: |
DMLuikens69@aol.com |
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| Location: |
Valley, Nebraska |
| Comments: |
I am so sorry to hear
about Bill. I live in a very small town but there are still a
lot of homophobic people here. I read Bill's story because I am
doing a Junior Project on Hate Crimes and I want people to know
that hate crimes don't only hurt the people they are inflicted
on but they also hurt their families because things could end up
in tragedy like Bill. Thank you for the sincere story.
David |
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| Saturday 09/28/2002
11:04:30pm |
| Name: |
Suzie |
| E-Mail: |
lipie@hotmail.com |
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| Location: |
Calgary Canada |
| Comments: |
Bill was the most
beautiful boy I've seen. Its such a heartbreak to hear gays, and
lesbians (like me) are dying because of rejection. I'm so sorry
because of your great misfurtune. I hope that he's made a huge
impac of peoples lives. I hope some day, this bullshit will
stop. |
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| Saturday 09/28/2002
5:57:12am |
| Name: |
Carrie |
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| Location: |
Fort Wayne, IN |
| Comments: |
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| Friday 09/27/2002
9:25:37pm |
| Name: |
Caleb |
| E-Mail: |
MadisonGold@webtv.net |
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| Location: |
Illinois |
| Comments: |
Thank you for sharing your story. I have a younger, 17 year old
brother who is gay, and I would do ANYTHING for him. Reading
your story made me realize what my brother may be going through.
Hating another person to the extent of extreme violence just
blows my mind; I can't even comprehend it. Thank you for taking
a stand so that we, as a nation, can move forward, striving for
tolerance. I'm very sorry for your loss. |
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| Thursday 09/26/2002
3:11:35pm |
| Name: |
Thom Hoffman |
| E-Mail: |
thomathome1@aol.com |
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| Location: |
Indinapolis In. |
| Comments: |
My brother sent me
your site. I feel for you. Both my brother and I are gay and he
more than myself sufferd the harrasment.I feel and support your
quests in life. |
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| Thursday 09/26/2002
1:58:40pm |
| Name: |
Brittany hAUSMAN |
| E-Mail: |
Bubblebunny07@aol.com |
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| Location: |
ohio |
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| Wednesday 09/25/2002
6:35:56pm |
| Name: |
Craig Ledbetter |
| E-Mail: |
redrocks@sui.edu |
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| Comments: |
I am a freshman at
Southern Illinois University. Although I am not homosexual, I am
writing a paper on the issue of sentencing of those commiting
hate crimes. I personally do not believe that those commiting
hate crimes should recieve a more harsh punishment than someone
who commits a crime with a different motive, but if you read
this, i would like you to email me your thoughts. Do you think
someone who murders on the grounds of a 'hate crime' should
recieve a more harsh punishment than, perhaps, someone who kills
in a drunk driving accident. with your personal reference to the
subject, your thought would be greatly appreciated as well as
respected. Thank you for your compelling and touching story,
your son seemed like a fine young man. Thank you.
Sincerly and God Bless,
Craig Ledbetter |
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| Wednesday 09/25/2002
4:45:11pm |
| Name: |
cherrita |
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| Wednesday 09/25/2002
4:04:10pm |
| Name: |
Robert A. Hoffman |
| E-Mail: |
mixedmedia0@yahoo.com |
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http://geocities.com/rah4art/GLinde.html |
| Location: |
Fort Wayne,Indiana |
| Comments: |
I just happened across
your site, I was just like Bill harassed and abused to the point
of depression and suicidal ideas. My mother, grandmother and
brother were a good support.
I was brought to tears in reading how Bill was tormented and
taken back to my youth and wished I would have been as strong as
he was, My prayers go out to you and your family and I will
never forget this story and Bill's strenght.
PEACE AND LOVE ALWAYS
ROBERT |
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| Wednesday 09/25/2002
10:34:08am |
| Name: |
Ryan ` |
| E-Mail: |
RyanBillion@doityourself.com |
| Homepage: |
not acceciable without
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| Location: |
SLC, Utah |
| Comments: |
Hi this is Ryan the
one Mike talked about earlier. Im 16 and live in SLC, Utah. Its
very hard to live among many people such as Mormons who do not
accept homesexuals or bisexuals. Im a homesexual and it is very
hard. Having someone like Mike and Kirk have helped me so much.
I don't know how I can repay them. Im very gald to have them in
my life. I'm looking forward to seeing them. Supporting each
other is what we need to do. I have tried commiting sucid.
Coming out and haveing friends I can rely on is very special to
me. We must support our selfs so that we won't do anything rash.
People do not need to die or commit sucid for this. Im planning
to start a Gay Straight Alliance (GSA) at my school I hope it
works out. My symapthy to the familys of anyone that has died in
their lives becuase they weren't social acceptiable. I hope one
day that we all can live in peace. But as for now support is all
we can give.
And Mike I Love You |
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| Wednesday 09/25/2002
9:17:34am |
| Name: |
Jared Orr |
| E-Mail: |
ethan10@hotmail.com |
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| Location: |
Houston, Texas |
| Comments: |
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| Wednesday 09/25/2002
2:27:41am |
| Name: |
AnnaMarie Cepeda |
| E-Mail: |
chicka88us@yahoo.com |
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| Location: |
Guam, USA |
| Comments: |
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| Tuesday 09/24/2002
6:01:21pm |
| Name: |
Kristiana |
| E-Mail: |
thatonechickk@hotmail.com |
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| Location: |
New York |
| Comments: |
I found the link to
your site in Rochester's Democrat and Chronicle and I am so glad
that I did. As a bisexual teenaged girl, I of course can relate
to some of the things your son went through. I just want you to
know that while he is gone, his memory and every idiom he stood
for is still alive. Over the past year my friends and I have
worked to reduce homophobia within our school, and it really has
worked. Our principal made an announcement on the loudspeaker
one day telling the student body that the words 'gay,' 'faggot,'
'dyke,' or any variation of the words was absolutely
innapropriate when used in a derogatory fashion. That day, I did
not hear any homophobia in the halls, and to this day it is at a
very bare minimum.
Basically, I want to thank you for sharing your wonderful story
with the rest of the world. Hopefully one day everyone will see
what horrifying similarities these anti-gay hate crimes bear to
the days of the Nuremburg. |
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| Tuesday 09/24/2002
3:59:42pm |
| Name: |
Sarah |
| E-Mail: |
precious18@lycos.com |
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| Comments: |
Just wanted to say I
know it is not easy getting picked on for being diffrent, I was
born with no left arm past the elbow and I am sure he went
through all the things I have and will go though and it is not
easy. Some are stronger than others. Even though I never knew
him I will think of him and know of what he has been though and
can say I REALLY KNOW WHAT HE FELT. I hope and pray that people
come to grips that it is time togrow up and be adults and
realize no one will ever be perfect. |
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| Tuesday 09/24/2002
1:38:42pm |
| Name: |
Anina |
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| Location: |
Franklinville N.J |
| Comments: |
I cried when I read
your sons story. I know that in this world there is hatred
against not only what race you are, but what sex you are as
well. I am 14 years old and i have many bisexual friends.However
I love them unconditionally. I just want to say that your
homeoage for Billy is very nice. I know that he would have loved
it to. Even though I didn't know Billy I decided to read his
story. People need to except people for who they are, and not
what they want to be. |
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| Tuesday 09/24/2002
5:48:58am |
| Name: |
Teresa Wilson |
| E-Mail: |
wilsonmspooh@aol.com |
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| Location: |
Cincinntia,Ohio |
| Comments: |
I CRIED WHEN I READ
THE STORY OF YOUR SONS STRUGGLE WITH OUR SOCIETY TODAY AND I'M
TRUELY SORRY FOR YOUR LOSS.I HOPE PEOPLE READ HIS STORY AND
REALIZE THAT THE HATE NEEDS TO STOP!!! |
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| Monday 09/23/2002
3:27:43pm |
| Name: |
Jennifer |
| E-Mail: |
mistic_writer@yahoo.com |
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| Location: |
Upstate New York |
| Comments: |
I am lesbian mom of
four with a transgender partner. I am also a student at
Fingerlakes community college in canadagua, NY studying
sociology. I happened upon your sight as I was looking for
infromation on gay hate crimes. I am very sorry for your lose. I
have never been afraid of being out nor will I allow someone to
scare me into the "closet". I hope you find a place of
peace within the horror of our nation and the hatered for the
unknown. |
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| Monday 09/23/2002
9:08:19am |
| Name: |
Michael Billion |
| E-Mail: |
milesanda@hotmail.com |
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| Comments: |
What a wonderful
tribute to Bill. I was one of those students back in 1980. I was
very fortunate that I held on until I was able to tell my family
about me being gay when I was 26 in the summer of 1990. I was
shocked that they were very supportive. I was also very
relieved. My brother who was about to serve in the Persian gulf
told me that he loved me. My 3 sisters alike. With that
assurance grew confidence in my daily life! I had an
exceptionally wonderful "coming out"! Totally unusual
from other stories I've heard. 3 months later, I met my
"Husband" Kirk. We will be celebrating 12 years
together on Sept. 30, 2002. I would like you to know, I too
share your grief reading this. I work in an automotive arena
where issues of this topic are not shared with others. Alas, I
am very lucky to have many gay/lesbian/straight friends to share
my life's experiences with.
You have opened another chapter in my life. THANK YOU!!! :o)
I've always wanted to help someone in need and I recently have.
I met a 16 yr old male on-line who was having trouble dealing
with being gay. I understand that this is a touchy subject to
other families who may NOT understand, especially recieving
support frona total stranger. Many families would find it to be
somewhat a pediphilic stalker. I AM NOT! He was very self
destructive too. He was physically, mentally, and sexually
abused by age 9. He wants to change his name to Ryan. Ryan needs
counseling to deal with issues that occurred as a child. BUT, he
has come out to his friends and to his family. He is from a
broken home. His father and stepmom are having serious denial
issues. He also lacks the physical contact(hugs) and mental love
from his family. Ryan has become much, much more confident in
everything he does since becoming truthful to himself. I am very
proud of him and We love him too. Until he is 18 we can only
support him over the phone.
I expect that when he completes his high school education he
will move into our home and continue his college career in
Psychology. And there, he will have a loving and nurturing home
to become a grown mature adult. Again Thank you for allowing me
to have an opportunity to share my life to a wonderful family as
yours. -Michael |
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| Friday 09/20/2002
1:00:19am |
| Name: |
kelsey |
| E-Mail: |
klsy23@yahoo.com |
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| Location: |
Houston |
| Comments: |
it touch me in so many
ways |
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| Thursday 09/19/2002
8:55:01am |
| Name: |
Patrick Cardwell |
| E-Mail: |
plcard@cox.net |
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| Location: |
Pensacola, FL |
| Comments: |
My heart goes out to
you and so many other PFLAG families and of course the people
who suffer the most that gay, lesbian, or bi-sexuals who live
through life.
I am 53 at this time, but there was I time I was only going to
be 20 and no more. That's a long story of trying live my life to
satisfy those around me instead of what made me happy.
No one will really know what all was going on through your son's
mind at the time he took his actions, But I can almost bet you,
it was anguishing, expecially if you, your family, and friends
showed support and love. But in his mind, it was the right thing
to do.
God didn't make any junk, or that's what I was told, well maybe
just one, Jerry Falwell, but hey ...
Bless you all in your sorrow, but just remember, you have the
memories of a life time, as short as it was. NOBODY, NO ONE can
ever take those away from you. They are your memories until you
die then you pass them on to another to be passed on and passed
on.
What needs to be done. You have asked the Gay community to stop
the bashings. I'm not too sure what else we can do. We travel in
groups, and follow the police suggestions of protection. Yet
sadly, it continues. It is now time for you and others who
perhaps are closeted straight people who understand we are human
beings. God blessed us to be a little bit different than the
rest for some reason. YOU must take the stand at the hate group
rallies, such as the Jerry Falwall's and others. If you want to
find other haters hiding behind the cross, just do a search and
you will be surprise what and who you will come up as hate
mongers described as think tanks, Just search "queers fags
hate" You will get an education.
Again, take care and remember your memories. There just had to
be some good ones in there some place.
Love to you and your family,
Patrick Cardwell |
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| Monday 09/16/2002
3:53:08pm |
| Name: |
Trevor |
| E-Mail: |
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| Homepage: |
All about Trevor &
Donnie |
| Homepage
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http://trevc.tripod.com |
| Location: |
FL |
| Comments: |
Very interesting
webpage...Sorry to hear about your loss....Thank you for sharing
your story. |
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| Monday 09/16/2002
8:05:48am |
| Name: |
Dan Wright |
| E-Mail: |
dukat5116green@iowatelecom.net |
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| Location: |
Southeast Iowa |
| Comments: |
i read the story and i
was touched by it. i knew that there was sucidal gay/bi/trans
teens out there but when i read the story it was more of a
personal feeling that i could relate to because there was also
some discrimination and possible threats towards me. i just hope
that one day people would open up and understand that were are
what we are. |
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| Sunday 09/15/2002
1:53:35am |
| Name: |
Luming |
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| Location: |
Taiwan |
| Comments: |
I am not gay but that
doesn't mean that I am against it. We are all different: race,
color, culture, sexual orientation. But I do believe that there
is no standard for being a human being except being kind,
understanding and forgiving. Those who commit hate crimes do it
mostly out of blind fear, for not understanding or believing
lies told by other haters. Having a gay friend won't make one
gay. Acceptance, though, will make you a better person.
Your son is in a better place now for there is only one heaven
for those who love unconditionly. |
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| Saturday 09/14/2002
3:24:32am |
| Name: |
Graham |
| E-Mail: |
starmateoz@hotmail.com |
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| Comments: |
Your son's story is
amazing and inspiring. I live each day with the burden of being
gay, a burden that doesn't come with choice but something that
is inevitable. Suffering from depression and suicide, even to
this day(17y/o), I can relate to your son's feelings, but the
fact that I'm still in the closet, relieves me from all the
abuse and prejudice that comming out will entail. Best of luck
everything you do, I will remember Bill's story from here on
end, thanks for sharing your amazing story |
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| Friday 09/13/2002
4:12:00pm |
| Name: |
Eddie |
| E-Mail: |
lickyboy3000@yahoo.com |
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| Location: |
Dallas |
| Comments: |
I'm really sorry. I
have been living Bill's nightmare since I was a kid. I have been
verbally abused only, and I can't talk to my Mom anymore. I have
tried suicide several times and have been in the hospital twice.
It's not fair, how many people commit suicide and we dont even
know the reason is because of their orientation ? I shed tears
for Bill, for everyone scared. I am surprised I have made it to
30. |
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| Friday 09/13/2002
3:17:29pm |
| Name: |
Vincent Hollister |
| E-Mail: |
Queerboy8@netscape.net |
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| Location: |
Houston Tx |
| Comments: |
I am so sorry to hear
about your son. He sounds like a wonderful person. I am gay(30).
Fortunatly I never had to go through what he went through. I
have dealted with People calling me queer,fag and so on. But you
have to remember he is in a better place. You will always be in
my prayers. |
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| Friday 09/13/2002
10:15:08am |
| Name: |
Ashley Randall |
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| Location: |
Kaneland high |
| Comments: |
i was very touched by
the story that you wrote and am very sorry for what happened.
and i hope nothing like that happens to me. |
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| Thursday 09/12/2002
2:53:52pm |
| Name: |
Scott |
| E-Mail: |
scotty314u@hotmail.com |
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| Location: |
Canada |
| Comments: |
A very powerful and
moving story, as an openly gay man, regrettably I can relate to
alot of this story. It was not easy growing up - learning to
understand yourself, and finally coming to learn and like who
and what I am. I found tears in my eyes as I read the quote
about - "this just is". I didn't make a conscious
decision, this is just the way I am. It wasn't easy - and
thankfully with the love and support of family and friends, I am
here today (34). I was where Bill was - many times. one of my
favorite quotes might be appropriate - it always picks me up a
little when the blues still get to me.
"There are gods and there are monsters, but most of us are
ordinary mortals caught up in events too turbulent for any of
us. Perhaps when the dust settles, all we will be left with is
the ashes of something once beautiful".
Thank you again for sharing your story - and I am sorry for your
loss. |
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| Thursday 09/12/2002
7:49:28am |
| Name: |
Tasha Cline |
| E-Mail: |
candysweet04@hotmail.com |
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| Comments: |
I feel very deeply for
you. I read this story and was able to relate to it my self. I
knew a person killed in a hate crime. I will pray for you. |
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| Wednesday 09/11/2002
1:01:15pm |
| Name: |
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| Comments: |
I am sorry your son
committed suicide and the loss you feel for you helped create
him. However, he got what was coming to him. |
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| Wednesday 09/11/2002
11:59:43am |
| Name: |
Wes |
| E-Mail: |
Wes916@aol.com |
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| Location: |
Dallas TX |
| Comments: |
I just wanted to take
a moment to thank you for sharing your son's story. It was very
moving and powerful! I am 24 and know how hard it can be growing
up gay and coping with other people's prejudice. It is so sad
that you lost your son but I believe you are helping many people
by sharing his story. Thank you again! |
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| Wednesday 09/11/2002
10:07:20am |
| Name: |
Alane Tarmina |
| E-Mail: |
atarmina@postmark.net |
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| Location: |
Fresno, California |
| Comments: |
I understand your
anger at the Lion's Clubs rejection. They make it appear that,
somehow, the person is at fault for the rejection and are unable
to bring humanity into a process that should be totally human. |
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| Wednesday 09/11/2002
9:40:19am |
| Name: |
Robin Woods |
| E-Mail: |
robinofthewoods@hotmail.com |
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| Comments: |
Very sad and powerful
story. I am very sorry for your loss and wish I had the power to
make human beings just LOVE! I will continue praying until
people open their hearts. God bless! |
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| Wednesday 09/11/2002
2:15:20am |
| Name: |
Ryan Gerry |
| E-Mail: |
bowlingcaptain@hotmail.com |
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| Location: |
Aberdeen SD, 57401 |
| Comments: |
I just want to let you
know that as a gay youth today i was very touched by
"Bill's story". And i send my deepest of appologies
and condolences to the family and friends of Bill. |
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| Tuesday 09/10/2002
10:19:50pm |
| Name: |
murdoc |
| E-Mail: |
bbmurdoc2001@yahoo.com |
| Homepage: |
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| Location: |
ohio |
| Comments: |
your story really
moved me it brought a tear to my eyes i am not gay but i think
that gays and other people should have the same rights as other
people do so please hang in there please e-mail me me back so we
can talk i had a friend who was murder because he was gay but
the guy got away with mansluder and was sentence to twenty five
years and prison so we can talk well e-mail me back. love always
murdoc. |
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| Monday 09/09/2002
8:38:34pm |
| Name: |
David Mitchell |
| E-Mail: |
NwlkCTGayboi@aol.com |
| Homepage: |
My Gay Page |
| Homepage
URL: |
http://www.dlm20.8k.com |
| Location: |
Norwalk, CT USA |
| Comments: |
Nice site I am sorry
to hear about the way the hate Crimes affected your son. |
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| Monday 09/09/2002
10:25:42am |
| Name: |
Ricky |
| E-Mail: |
Doskey2002@hotmail.com |
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| Location: |
Ohio |
| Comments: |
This story really
touched me, because I went through similar things. I'm 17 m
bisexual and open in a small redneck town in Ohio. This story
shows that people are vile and hanieous. Thanks for sharing your
story it really touched me. |
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| Sunday 09/08/2002
5:47:54am |
| Name: |
Bob K. |
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| Location: |
Chicago |
| Comments: |
Your site and the
story of your son are very moving and you should be proud of the
work you have done against bigotry and hatred.
I stumbled on this site ironically because I was doing a Google
search for the John W. Gardner quote that you included in your
quote collection; I read this quote at my high school graduation
in a speech, 20 years ago.
In the years that followed that speech, I too struggled with my
sexual identity. I came out as a gay man, became active in
PFLAG, and luckilly got the strong support of family and
friends.
Thanks for your work and efforts. |
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| Sunday 09/08/2002
3:05:47am |
| Name: |
USMC PFC Brummitt,
Michael |
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| Saturday 09/07/2002
2:53:49pm |
| Name: |
Gavin |
| E-Mail: |
gavinrewald@bigpond.com |
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| Comments: |
Hi thanks for sharing
this story. From an Aussie guy. |
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| Wednesday 09/04/2002
10:43:33pm |
| Name: |
Jasmine Kakelaka |
| E-Mail: |
black_shiny_star@yahoo.com |
| Homepage: |
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| Location: |
Waimanalo,Hawaii |
| Comments: |
I just wanted to say
i'm sorry about your son. |
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| Wednesday 09/04/2002
6:47:41am |
| Name: |
Gerard Haynes |
| E-Mail: |
gerhay@ananzi.co.za |
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| Location: |
South Africa |
| Comments: |
If only we could get
an answer to the question: WHY?, then perhaps we will be able to
live in harmony with each other. WHY, do people want to hurt
others? WHY, are people so intollerant? WHY, do some men think
it is a macho thing to do, to attack gay people? |
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| Monday 09/02/2002
9:04:59pm |
| Name: |
Joe Brown |
| E-Mail: |
joejoejoejoejoejoejoe@msn.com |
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| Location: |
Omak, WA |
| Comments: |
Unfortunetly the worst
of things happen to the nicest of people.... |
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| Monday 09/02/2002
3:23:02pm |
| Name: |
Rick Tibben |
| E-Mail: |
tibbmopar@pronet.net |
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| Location: |
Nipomo, CA |
| Comments: |
Keep up the good work.
I work with Pflag in the San Luis Obispo area in California. I
also volunteer in the local schools and recreation center. I DO
NOT allow any kid to harrass another AND I do not allow them to
use anti-gay words (very popular) against another even if they
are not trying to be derogatory. And I explain why it is hateful
and hurtful. I also work with our local Mentor Alliance group
and Big Brothers/Big Sisters. Our kids are our most important
asset. We need to get them all through school safely in an
atmosphere in which all can learn. If my local school district
shirks there duty, I will be there. |
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| Monday 09/02/2002
12:46:26am |
| Name: |
lew |
| E-Mail: |
lewdogfla@aol.com |
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| Comments: |
i signed this because
i made it thru my teen years intact , i had many similar trials.
i'm sorry for your lost son
thank you for sharing ,,,
i hope that it will help some one.. |
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| Monday 09/02/2002
7:16:25am |
| Name: |
Gabi Clayton |
| E-Mail: |
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| Homepage: |
the index page &
more about Bill |
| Homepage
URL: |
http://www.youth-guard.org/gabi/respondex.html |
| Location: |
Olympia, WA |
| Comments: |
This new guestbook was
started on 9/2/02. Links to pages with all the past responses to
Bill's story are on the page link above. Thank you so much for
signing my guestbook.
Love, Gabi |
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