Gabi Clayton's Guestbook # 15 - From 1/19/99 to 2/25/99
Note: This guestbook reads from the bottom of the page up. -- Gabi

Name: Jennifer
Referred by: Yahoo!
From: Montana
Time: 1999-02-25 16:14:23
Comments: Hello my name is Jennifer and I am a senior in high school. I am doing a report on hate crimes and I came across your page and I read your story about your son. I know that it has been a while since his passing but I am sorry that people hated the way that he was. I am wiping the tears from my eyes and I can't believe a beautiful young man woudl be discriminated upon. I live here in Montana and I thought that being in some what a country town there wouldn't be that much hate toward people. I see it every day and it really bothers me. I tend to get sick at my stomach. God put us on this earth to love one another, so why do we hate each other just because of our skin color, a disability, race or our sexual preference? I some times wonder where the hate will lead to in the near future. I hope that many other people read the story about your son and realize that no matter who a person is, love them because of who they are and what they have coming for them in the future. Take Care and I hope that more people like myself will appear in the world. Sincerely, jennifer at

Name: Kevin Griggs
Referred by: Just Surfed On In
From: Ames, Iowa
Time: 1999-02-25 12:49:05
Comments: My deepest sympathy to Bill's family and friends. What a touching story. I almost feel as if I new Bill. I found the site after a search for anti-hate groups. I don't understand the emotion of "hate". I'm ashamed to live in a world/time/country where people's hate can cause such pain in other human beings. After the recent hate-related murders of Mathew Shepard and James Byrd and learning of Bill's story, I feel compelled to do my part to stop the spread of this ugly plague. I plan to explore things I can do personally to prevent hate but would appreciate any help/suggestions from others. God bless you Bill, I hope things are better where you are now.

Name: Heidi Wheatley
Referred by: From a Friend
From: Illinois
Time: 1999-02-24 16:58:39
Comments: I am so sorry for your loss. What an amazing child you raised. As the mother of a young boy, my heart broke when I read your son's story. How sad that society took the life of a vibrant and productive young man. God bless you for sharing a very painful story and trying to educate. I will pass this website on to everyone I know as a reminder that the fight against hatred is far from over. God bless you and your family.

Name: Lisa Avila
Referred by: Yahoo!
From: Holland, Michigan
Time: 1999-02-24 14:42:33
Comments: Hi, I haven't read the whole article yet but just knowing there are still ignorant people left makes me sick. I've printed the article and will read it later today. I feel sad for anyone that hates people for who they are. Regardless of your sexual preference, skin color or religion , we are all people that bleed, hurt and cry. Nobody has the right to make anyone uncomfortable of who they are. GROW UP!!!!!! Everyone is different so deal with it. We're all here to stay whether you like it or not. I commend the family for putting this story out. Maybe people will learn to open their eyes. I'm deeply sorry for your loss.

Name: Josh Kading
Referred by: Just Surfed On In
From: Wisconsin
Time: 1999-02-24 06:20:02
Comments: Very touching story. I'm very sorry about everything that happened and I commend you on your courage and strength. Hopefully one day crimes like this will be a thing of the past!

Name: Kristi Alaniz
Referred by: Yahoo!
From: Texas
Time: 1999-02-23 21:22:40
Comments: Mrs. Clayton, I just felt compelled to respond to your story about your son, Bill. He sounds like a beautiful person and it is such a tragedy to see how his life ended. I can only imagine the pain you and your family must have endured and probably continue to do so until this day. I simply came across your article because I was doing some research for a government class and I was interested in the Hate law. I was not familiar with it until a man from Jasper, TX was killed a few months back simply because of his race. I don't know what to say except the world we live in is a crazy place, full of hate and prejudice - we can only hope for better things to come. I pray for you and your family but also for our world, that we come to grow and love each other simply for who we are. May God Bless you always.

Name: Robert J. duPreez
Website: I don't have one. But I live at the one I listed :)
Referred by: NewsGroups
From: Born in San Francisco and live in San Jose, CA
Time: 1999-02-23 21:06:48
Comments: Today I met Bill. 2/23/99 . Im am lucky to have survived 42 years only because I did what many have done; endured in the closet. But I have found now that its not the way to live. And as of two years ago I came out to myself, my friends, and my family. I knew since 12 that I was a gay male. But I had already felt the pressures of having deep emotional feelings for the same sex. In short. I was not brave as Bill was. To try and fight the ill wills of our society. So he gave it his best shot with what he had. But from reading his story I know that it must have been too much from being too young and so ahead of the others. For me. Bill will be remembered as what we must fight against. For the children as well as their parents. To learn the fact that people are different and its very wrong to hate anyone, for any reason, just because they have it in them to share their love for each, or same sex. Any number of things might have changed Bills path, But his story has moved me towards the next time anyone speaks of hate of gays or other races or creeds, or anyone not like them. To say. Im something you hate. but Im not going to tell you. Youve killed thousands already, Not even by deeds.. But by your ignorance of society. Bill, I wish I knew you, and could have been one of your friends. Robert

Name: David M. Sanders
Referred by: Just Surfed On In
From: San Francisco
Time: 1999-02-23 20:10:18
Comments: I was touched by the story of your son. Intolerance and misunderstanding are especially tough on youth; I remember the feelings that I went through when I first came out. It took me years to finally shake the feelings of unworthiness.

Name: Joe Lindsey
Referred by: Just Surfed On In
From: Cincinnati Ohio
Time: 1999-02-23 09:33:14
Comments: My heart goes out to you. As a father of to young girls I would not dare to say what I might do if some lowlife bastard laid a hand on my kids no matter what the reason. I guess I may be a little homophobic but that does not give anyone the right to say what is right and wrong. We are all the same in the eyes of the lord. Stay strong and I will say a little prayer for your family and for Bill.

Name: Jade Gray
Referred by: Just Surfed On In
From: Wisconsin
Time: 1999-02-22 21:10:54
Comments: I appreciate your story! It just seems that as each and every day passes something else surfaces concerning this sort of thing. I am a high school teacher and if i were to come out as a lesbian, i would be fired or asked to resign. I find it so repulsive that i am unable to feel safe about revealing who i am. I know i have gay and lesbian students, many of which feel very alone. Who can they talk to? Noone really. I hope that someday things will get better. Education and the military seem to be the most homophobic environments to work. I know that if all the gay and lesbian teacher/administrators and support staff left the profession, there wouldnt be many "kewl" people left. I thank you for sharing your story about Bill. You and yours will be in my prayers, and those that have or are thinking about commiting a hate crime. We must pass hate crime legislation and figure out ways to prevent people from avoiding the loopholes that are associated with hate crime legislation in states that actually have it. Sincerely, Jade

Name: Alton R. Colombe
Website: na
Referred by: Clicked on our Banner Advertisement
From: Arkansas
Time: 1999-02-21 19:31:06
Comments: Words cannot tell you, how very sorry i am that this dear boy was sacrificed to ignorance. Someday maybe the world will wake up and relieze that not only jesus died on the cross. Mt heart is filled with sorrow over such a tragedy.

Referred by: From a Friend
Time: 1999-02-20 07:32:46
Comments: As I read the story of each young man who lost their lives and had to go throught the hate made by other. This story of this young man brought tears to my eyes know no one should have to go throught this. I thought we live in a country where it free to pick and life you want to live but I guess I was wrong you have to live the way other tell you to, well wrong my live I live it the way I want too I dont tell other how to live and they should not tell me, I do hope to the good Lord this kind of hate is wipe out for good. My prayer goes out to the family of this young man and I to will remember him as a brave one and hope no one else have to go throught the hate. Gob bless you and I never met you but it would have been an honor it I had....

Name: tanya
Website: Scarlettmusic
Referred by: Just Surfed On In
From: Los Angeles
Time: 1999-02-19 23:31:29
Comments: My thoughts and prayers are with you. As a mother of two small boys I am so sorry you and your son and your family had to go through this. It could be any one of us.At least you know you are and never will be alone...

Name: Debbie Carbin
Website: carbinworld
Referred by: Just Surfed On In
From: Maryland
Time: 1999-02-19 21:17:51
Comments: My heart is with you. I cannot imagine your pain. The world is full of stupid, ignorant people who have hate in their hearts. I am sorry that your family has had to live through all of this pain because of these people. Take care.

Name: Cercey
Website: The Dragon's Nest
Referred by: Just Surfed On In
From: Monaco
Time: 1999-02-19 20:47:34
Comments: Thank you for putting this on the web. Two of my best friends are bi, and I worry about them a lot. I am very greatful that they have each other, if they didn't, I think things would be a lot worse.

Name: Tasha Wolf
Referred by: Yahoo!
From: Tukwila, WA
Time: 1999-02-19 17:58:37
Comments: Bill truly sounds like he was a beautiful person, I wish I could have known him. I know how he felt, and what he went through to some extent, because I have been there too....My fiancee' is a bisexual woman, and I'm lesbian and things can get so hard for us, when all we want to do is be family to one another, be happy. Bill never got that chance, and I'm sorry he didn't....

Name: Steve Mitchell
Website: none
Referred by: Just Surfed On In
From: Napa Valley, Originally Mich.
Time: 1999-02-19 01:57:11
Comments: I am very sorry about your son. It has to hurt more than anything. I have a 19 year old son and 17 year old daughter and I was always grateful that they were hetero so they wouldn't have to go thru what their dad went thru in life. It shouldn't hurt so deeply to be true to yourself. The hate in this world is like a virus that snuffs out life. At 45 I still struggle because I am "out" - I still run across people who say things or think things; I can always tell when people are being homophobic. Anyhow my heart and prayers go out to you and yours... best wishes for the future Steve in Napa Ca.

Name: A.E. Fraser
Referred by: From a Friend
From: Kent, WA U.S.A.
Time: 1999-02-19 01:40:52
Comments: I was forwarded this site by a friend, not knowing what to expect. What I have found is a family's message loud and clear and beautiful. I intend on passing your link on to others and I hope that your message is heard around the world. You are right, hate can only grow in silence and dark places. I should think that you have given a ray of light to that place your son fell into.

Name: Andi Hughes
Referred by: From a Friend
From: Cheltenham, England
Time: 1999-02-19 01:20:10
Comments: Hi. I'm really sorry for what happend to Bill. I know exactly what he went through. I have been bullied, assulted, attacked and tormented because I am gay. And at age 17 - it's not the easiest thing in the world to be. I'm really sorry for what happend - it scares me to think something similar will happen to me. Mainly because I recently told my family I was gay - and now none of them talk to me! I have lost lots of friends. And Nothing seems to get better. So I really relate to what happend and I send my deepest sympathies! Love Andi. Thank U, beacoup xxxx

Name: Jacob Bradler
Referred by: Just Surfed On In
From: Sweden
Time: 1999-02-18 22:44:49
Comments: It's good that someone speaks up for us bisexual people. I'm sorry that someone had to die for a sexual orientation. The whoole wolrd must accept and understand that we don't choose to be gay or bisexual. I touched by what I just read.. and I hope It will do some difference in the world. Thank you.

Name: Richard Shook
Referred by: Yahoo!
From: Essexville, Michigan
Time: 1999-02-18 17:59:31
Comments: Thank you for this wonderful sharing of Bill with us. I am a high school teacher and it tears my heart to read this and know there are students right here perhaps going through this same terror. Your memorial, your lives is a big step and I, too, have worked and will continue to work against hate and violence and discrimination.

Name: Jacqueline Mowrey
Referred by: Yahoo!
From: Ijamsville, MD
Time: 1999-02-18 16:21:54
Comments: I was doing some research for a paper on hate crimes. I have always been aware of the actual crimes committed, and I have always been aware of the ignorance that is the impetus for these crimes. I must admit that I have never fully considered the consequences on the victims' part. What I mean is that I know the fear that exists, but I never considered how far the fear could drive someone. I feel deeply for your family and friends, and I hope that one day hate crimes will be gone. Your son's story has opened my eyes to yet another avenue to be considered about hate crimes.

Name: Jeff Clemmons
Referred by: Just Surfed On In
From: Atlanta, GA
Time: 1999-02-17 06:16:23
Comments: I commend you on your courage and fight for what is right. I know too well the struggles a gay person is assaulted with--I myself am a gay 25 year old male. I really don't know what else to say...I mean I could go on forever about politics and my experiences, but I only wish that I or someone like me could have been there for your son. If any thing, reading the above article will once again get me involved with helping people that are struggling to come to terms with their sexuality. (It isn't an easy thing). I think too often older gays shy away from helping those who struggle with this self-realization because they do not want to bring up or deal with their own past struggles. But, on the flip side, I too remember being a teenager and longing for someone to talk to, to look up to, to question my feelings about. It is people like yourself who will provide a window, a ray of hope for the questioning gay teen out there surfing the net...perhaps your article will help them to realize that people do care and love them for exactly who they are. Thanks and have rekindled a spirit in me long forgotten...the cry of the unjust. My quest for acceptance will resume. Perhaps, your sons death is like the Pheonix...rising from the ashes of intolerance so that others may learn and see and, most of all, change. I am sorry, however, that this had to come from such a personal loss. With sincere sympathy.........keep up the fight. Jeff Clemmons

Name: Dave Bradford
Referred by: NewsGroups
From: Los Angeles
Time: 1999-02-16 12:28:34
Comments: I stumbled onto your sight and want to thank you for the great links to the armed forces. I collect Seals (electronic) and this was a very nice catch. Was suprised to read the Journal and learn of Bill's Death. A wonderful testimonial of the experiences and trials... I will, no doubt, refer others to your site. Thanks again and my best wishes to you and your family. DB

Name: Martin Hore
Website: Technocub's world
Referred by: From a Friend
From: Southampton, UK
Time: 1999-02-16 11:07:51
Comments: I Read Bill's story and I was so moved, it makes me wonder what this world is coming to if somebody so wonderful has nothing but fear because of his sexuality. I have been assulted 2 times because of my sexuality and it's not easy to heal the scar's inside. I can really associate with Bill but I will not be beaten by a world of hate. Hate is hate and I will not tolerate it. We all need to stick together to make sure Bill and his story never get forgotten. This planet's big enough for all of us, we should love each other and enjoy life. Thank you for sharing bills story with me. I will include a link on my web page to bill's story as I feel everyone could benifit from this young mans stuggle with hate. Thank you

Name: Kathleen Begley
Referred by: Just Surfed On In
From: PA
Time: 1999-02-15 22:04:41
Comments: I found your story very touching. I am in the process of writing my Research paper for graduate school on violence endured among gay, lesiban, bisexual adolescents. This story rings true everywhere, and we must teach tolerance. Too many innocent people are losing their lives because of people's bisas'. There are people who are different within this world (because of skin color, religion, sexual orintation, gender) That's what makes this place; earth, such an interesting place. Think what life would be like if everyone thought the same, worshiped the same god, was the same sex, had the same skin color. Life would truly be boring. If you have any research on this topic or could point me in the right direction ,I would greatly appreciate it. Like you I would like to make a difference. If each person could educate just one other person, we could put an end to hate crimes. You are not born to "HATE". It is a learned behavior. Thank-you for sharing your story with the world. Change has to begin with somebody, and by you sharing your story, it has started. Kathleen Begley

Name: Kerri
Website: Kerri's Place
Referred by: Just Surfed On In
From: Virginia
Time: 1999-02-15 15:12:29
Comments: I don't know what to say other than I'm sorry. He looks like he was such a sweet kid... Maybe someday stuff like this won't happen anymore - we can only hope. You people sound like incredible parents - thank you for that. I'll light a candle for Bill tonight.

Name: Steve Indig, Jr.
Referred by: Just Surfed On In
From: Austin TX (central IA originally)
Time: 1999-02-15 09:38:32
Comments: I have heard this type of story too many times. For the same reasons I was too afraid to come out of the closet. It lead to many years of severe depression and several suicide attempts before I found a gay counseling group that finally convinced me to come out at age 33. I have been grateful to them for opening my eyes and allowing me to live as I believe I was meant to live. I still have fears from being part of a persecuted minority, but I can cope with those fears now. I just hope that the years of bigotry and hatred end before I die.

Name: Paul Beeman
Referred by: Net Search
Time: 1999-02-14 22:30:16
Comments: I had to read about you and Bill again, in order to use your story and his in a speech to a PFLAG regional conference. They continue to move me. Thanks for going public in your commitment to Bill and his peers. Paul

Name: deion
Referred by: Yahoo!
From: wv
Time: 1999-02-14 15:38:12
Comments: i'm glad he died. now the world has one less gay!

Name: Fallacy
Website: Fallacy Flow's Home
Referred by: Just Surfed On In
From: Ontario, Canada
Time: 1999-02-14 14:50:16
Comments: umm....just read Bill's was so touching...right now my eyes are filled with tears because I'm sort of in Bill's position...well, awhile ago i was...right now I'm coping just like he was and it scared me to death that it happened to someone else too.... We all have to take a stand against intolerance like this...we all have to help the queer youth of is OUR're soul will go on....

Name: Hans Erickson
Referred by: Just Surfed On In
From: Springfield, MO
Time: 1999-02-14 02:40:40
Comments: I was very touched by the story

Name: Robin
Referred by: Just Surfed On In
From: Medford, OR
Time: 1999-02-12 06:22:16
Comments: I must say after reading your story about your sons life I was very emotional. I am a bi-female who has always been told to keep it to myself. I was very touched by the love and support of his family and friends. I hope someday we can all live in some form of peace with everyone elses differences, what ever they may be. Thank you for taking time to show his life to us. Robin

Name: jennifer
Website: jen's world
Referred by: Lycos
From: Shreveport,LA
Time: 1999-02-11 22:45:09
Comments: sorry to read about bill. i plan on place a stop the hate logo on my page. i do not know how many peoples life i can touch when they stop by my site but maybe i can help change one person mind. love, jen

Name: Luciano Wallimann Wolff
Website: Wolff Mirror
Referred by: From a Friend
From: Campo Grande/ Mato Grosso do Sul/ Brasil
Time: 1999-02-11 12:30:17
Comments: you´re great!!!!!!

Name: Ben
Referred by: Just Surfed On In
From: Tempe, Arizona
Time: 1999-02-11 05:30:43
Comments: Now that the tears have dried, I just wanted to say that you could pay your son no greater honor than to fight hate, which is entirely too prevalent in our society. Every cloud has its silver lining, it's true, but I would argue that you have taken that and turned it into pure gold.

Name: Melvin Monette
Referred by: Yahoo!
From: Univ. of North Dakota
Time: 1999-02-10 18:31:11
Comments: I am in a multicultural education class and we are to find articles on the www re: Cultural Hate Crimes. Most of my classmates are searching under races and religions. I have chosen the culture of the homosexual individuals. It si very close to my heart as I have many relatives and friends who are homosexual and bisexual. I wanted to take the stories of families who have survived and use their stories to prove that the ignorants are not winning. I know that I know that Bill would be proud to stand next any family in your shoes and I am proud for you as a family to be taking a stand. May you always persevere and may the voice of Bill be eternal.

Name: Hazel MacAed
Website: Gay Parents
Referred by: Just Surfed On In
Time: 1999-02-09 22:33:50
Comments: Here is my correct email address

Name: Hazel MacAed
Website: Gay Parents
Referred by: Net Search
From: Clovis, CA
Time: 1999-02-09 22:33:32
Comments: Thank you for sharing your story with us. It took a lot of courage and love.

Name: Scott Higginbotham
Referred by: Yahoo!
From: Boston, Ma
Time: 1999-02-09 19:25:21
Comments: Great story. I am a gay man who has been a victim of a hate crime. Thanks for sharing your story with the public.

Name: jack belcher
Referred by: Net Search
From: birmingham
Time: 1999-02-09 13:13:41
Comments: hello you son of a bich

Name: Matt
Website: Riker's Lair
Referred by: Just Surfed On In
From: Nova Scotia, Canada
Time: 1999-02-09 11:37:37
Comments: This page is a touching a fitting memorial to the memory of both your son and his efforts as well as those from the people who cared most about him. I have been in the same situation several times and this page legitimizes the strength I have sought to go on each day. I hope yuor son watches over you each day and smiles.

Name: Myke Duncan
Website: EvilBob@Home
Referred by: Just Surfed On In
From: Scarborough - UK
Time: 1999-02-07 22:12:14
Comments: I've been sat here for the past hour in an absolute state after reading Bill's story. I've heard so many stories like that, and my first boyfriend took his own life so it's not a new thing for me. But somehow that was something about this story that touched me enough to sit here and cry. I haven't cried in more than four years. I thought maybe I couldn't cry any more. But after reading that story I cried. Thankyou for sharing the story. Thankyou for letting me know that I can still cry. Myke


Name: Richard Davis
Referred by: Just Surfed On In
From: Silver City, New Mexico
Time: 1999-02-05 20:01:14
Comments: Please Email me i have to ask you some questions concerning hate crimes. Thanks, Richard Davis

Name: Billy MacNab
Referred by: Just Surfed On In
From: Scotland
Time: 1999-02-05 19:06:28
Comments: I was very touched and saddened by your son's death - he seems to have been a very brave and sensitive young man. I am currently suffering from severe depression myself and (unfortunately and terrifyingly I am haunted by suicidal thoughts to end the pain) which is why I came across your pages as I look around for help or inspiration. All the best to you... Bily

Name: Claymore
Website: Claymore's Lost Solace
Referred by: Just Surfed On In
From: n/a
Time: 1999-02-05 05:29:43
Comments: Anger...Blinding Hot Anger is what I feel right now...And Pain...I wish I had met Bill... I am a Bisexual Male in the U.S. Marine Corps...I have been hiding so long...And this reminds me why... I admire Bill's courage, and I more than that I admire his Parents for doing the right thing... I know how it feels to get sick and tired of coping...tired of hiding...sick and tired of wondering if someone will find out today...will i die today? I have no one to turn to, no one to trust...only my web page, my E-Mail...and even that I always wonder if I will leave a trace... I have probably left enough info on the net for the government to get me...I understand the fear... My prayers are with Bill...and all of us.

Name: Michael
Referred by: Yahoo!
From: Salt Lake City, UT
Time: 1999-02-04 22:18:49
Comments: I came across your site while searching for information on Hate Crimes. I live in Utah and have lived here all my life (30 yrs). It sickens me to here of the suffering both Bill and you, his family, had to endure because of someone elses hates, fears and ignorance. There are too many stories like Bill's and I pray for a day when stories like this have happy endings. It is ironic that today in Salt Lake City, Utah, the Utah Hate Crimes Amendments bill was defeated by a vote of 4 to 2. The bill would have amended the state hate-crimes penalties and statistics laws by expanding the protected categories to include sexual orientation, race, sex, etc. and redefining a hate crime. It's opposers said that the bill would have given "special rights" to members of the protected categories, specifically the "sexual orientation" category. We have a lot of work to do here in Utah and everwhere else. Hate needs to stop! Thank you again for sharing your story with us. I will forward your link to certain Senators at our Capitol. They are the ones who need to read your story. Let's just hope they start listening.

Name: Dan
Referred by: Just Surfed On In
From: Northern California
Time: 1999-02-03 16:56:37
Comments: I really had tears in my eyes......when i read about your son's story. I can really feel your hardship. My older brother David commited suicide on June 5, 1997. He was not gay but had CFS (chronic fatigue syndrome). But I am a gay man 35 years young and have been out since I was 11. I have endured some of the same issues that your son did when I was growing up. I just wish that I can make some sort difference in young gays lifes by sending your webpage to people....thanks for everything, in advance....Dan

Name: Tim Kerslake
Website: Australian Gay Youth Resources Homepage
Referred by: Clicked on a 'Guestbooks by GuestWorld' Button
From: Australia
Time: 1999-02-03 02:38:15
Comments: I'd like to leave this message in your guest book. I have read Bill's Story, and I have been extremely touched by it. Certainly, this sort of behaviour that was displayed towards him because of his bisexuality is unacceptable. The fact that he found suicide the only way out is exceptionally sad. I have seen the images that were displayed on this page. While the images from his attack concern me, I must say that he really is an attractive boy - certainly, he looks and sounds like the type of guy I would go out with! Certainly, if he were still alive now, I would be more than prepared to help him go through what was probably the hardest time of his life. From the sounds of what was said on the webpage, and from the images you displayed of him, it could not have happened to a nicer or better-looking guy. If Bill were still alive, and I had heard about this, I would have told him that I cared about him and felt sorry for him because what he went through was awful. I would probably have also told Bill that I loved him. The belief among Christians that homosexuality is an abomination *could* be true, though it is probably not. But let me say this: there is no bigger abomination in my eyes than the things that Bill had to go through. It is a shame that Bill had to take his own life because of his sexuality. Only one good thing could come out of this. Although we may not be able to bring Bill back, if we all work together and fight hard enough, it may be enough to stop other people from doing the same. Kindest Regards, Tim Kerslake

Name: terence
Referred by: From a Friend
From: singapore
Time: 1999-02-02 05:44:14
Comments: well....i guess..i am the first asian here....its so saddening to read about bill...i am 19 this year..i only wish that all youths ,be it they are gays ornot would have the strength to face the world

Name: bonnie gerber
Referred by: From a Friend
From: austin minnesota
Time: 1999-02-01 19:36:41
Comments: A lady that is a friend of yours and made the poem e-mailed me this and asked if i would view it. It took my heart away. I can not imagine the kind of pain your son was in at the hands of other human beings as they would like them selves to be called. Im sorry that he had to endure this kind of pain,but maybe he knew something that we all dont. That there is a safe refuge in the hands of god and he will no longer be brutilized for the way he was born,felt or lived.

Name: Richard Foster
Referred by: Yahoo!
From: ypsilanti, michigan
Time: 1999-01-31 19:32:53
Comments: Although I am not gay myself, I have just a small idea of what your son must have gone through, and regret that we live in a world where there are still people that think it is ok to assault those that are not like them. I hope that more people get a chance to veiw this very touching story and learn to love even those thatare not like them.

Name: Dean
Website: The Wave
Referred by: Clicked on a 'Guestbooks by GuestWorld' Button
From: Australia
Time: 1999-01-31 12:14:02
Comments: Dear Gabi,Such a moving Story,I have added a Link to your page from my Homepage,hope it Helps.Youth Suicide amongst young Teen Guys in Australia has Sky Rocketed,your Inspiration in putting your Son's Tragic Story on the Net,hopefully will help,even if its just one Person,it makes a BIG difference.I feel a bit what Bill went through,as I had similar things haven't to me.My love goes out to you and your Loving Family,this is what is Called a True "Loving Family",Some Christian Churches and other Religions should learn from this,Hopefully about Love, and Compassion in our Society.Hate = Evil, So I hope Politicians will learn this too.all my Love, Dean PS any help you need in promoting this Site ,please let me know,ICQ uses Send this URL to all people on your List!!!!,its a Great Start ,Against HATE Crimes,its up to us.

Name: Jack Dawson
Referred by: From a Friend
From: Texas
Time: 1999-01-29 21:37:17
Comments: Dear Gabi, Through Darrell, I have learned the story of Bill and the legacy he left behind. I wish I could have had a friend as great as your son. God Bless you and keep you. Jack

Name: Darrel Miller
Referred by: Just Surfed On In
From: Ogden, Utah
Time: 1999-01-29 20:22:24
Comments: I'm sorry about the death of your son. It must have been hard for you and your family. I am in the process of becoming openly gay. I am 15. It might take a while, but I'm willing to wait. Until then, I am joining up with a few things that supports GLBT youth. I'm hoping that I could make a difference in my school. And, I'm going to fight until I do.

Name: Jeff
Referred by: From a Friend
From: Miami, Florida
Time: 1999-01-28 05:16:13
Comments: Bill's story has touched my heart. Reading it brought tears to my eyes because it was also my story. I'm another Bill. Everyday is a healing process for me. If it wasn't for God, family and friends, i wouldn't be here today. To know there are supporters like you and to hear stories like this, brings strength, encouragment, and hope for a better future. I believe Bill is touching other lives from Beyond. Thank you for sharing his story.

Name: Davey
Website: This is GaySkid!
Referred by: From a Friend
From: Ohio
Time: 1999-01-27 17:24:40
Comments: 21 years ago my best friend and lover Pete committed suicide because he couldn't handle the hate he got from his family for being gay and the pain remains. Thanks for sharing this story. I know I'm not alone. My heart goes out to you.

Name: Mike Orr
Referred by: Just Surfed On In
From: Omaha
Time: 1999-01-25 23:22:57
Comments: Being gay and have two children is actually the most stressful situation I can imagine. But reading your story has given light to the hate there is in out communities. I pray that your story will make people think about their lives and the lives of others when words like 'gay', 'faggot' and 'puff' are used. Understanding diversity is necessary for everyone. Thank you for sharing.

Name: Jason Novak
Referred by: Just Surfed On In
From: Missouri
Time: 1999-01-25 19:15:20
Comments: I think it is a tragedy what happened to your son, I fear every day that something simular may happen to me. I think it is wonderful that you put your story out this way people can get the full impact of what gay teens go through.I would love to hear from you if you have time E-mail me.

Name: Marshall Snyder
Referred by: Just Surfed On In
From: Warren, PA>
Time: 1999-01-25 14:46:07
Comments: Thanks you so much for Bill's story. I can't imagine what it would have been like for me if I would have come out as a teen. I did not come out until I was 39 years old. Even that was difficult. My heart goes out to Bill's parents , family and friends. Please....let us keep his memory alive for all those teens who are going through the same pain that Bill suffered. Let us not keep silent!

Name: Lee Thompson
Website: IHAVE Foundation
Referred by: From a Friend
From: Gold Bar, WA
Time: 1999-01-25 03:56:25
Comments: I am the President and Founder of IHAVE Foundation (International Hate and Violence Education Foundation) I am working with Matthew Shepards mom Judy on the International Hike Against Hate and Violence. A 2500 mile hike with the "Flame of Hope" being walked the entire trek. I am not sure of MAVIA's committment towards ending hate and violence towards gays in the schools and will find out more about SAFE. Please visit when you can and bless you for the work you are doing. "Because Everyone Is Someones Child"

Name: Karen Beam / Donna Bickel
Referred by: NewsGroups
From: Clewiston, Florida
Time: 1999-01-24 21:35:43
Comments: Our hopes and prayers go out to you and your family, Gabi. Bill seemed to be a extraordinary teen. Here in my small town there is lots of teens who face this type of discrimination. Donna is a school teacher of sixth grade science. I am a Correctional Officer II. We believe our existence on earth has a purpose and that is to help people understand how important it is to accept people for who they are, not what they are or what color they are or what sexuality they are. If there is a way you would like us to help get Bill's messege out, please let us know. Karen and Donna

Name: James
Referred by: Just Surfed On In
From: Bozeman, MT
Time: 1999-01-24 18:19:08
Comments: Gabi-I'm a sixteen year old bisexual male in Bozeman, Montana-a harsh reality check on the psychology of any gay/lesbian/bisexual youth. It's very difficult growing up here, although I must admit that I am much luckier than others. It can be an open town, but it only takes a few harsh words to really stab a heart. I deal with a lot of verbal, and sometimes even physical abuse at my high school-all of which is too overwellming, and I don't know what to do about it. Do you have any advise that you could share with me on what I can do to help others like myself in my community. I know I'm not the only bisexual teen, but I feel like the only one in Bozeman. Please help...I also want to share with you the fact that I just saw your segment on Health Week (or whatever the show was called...) on PBS. I just happened to pass by it, and I'm glad I saw it. Your son was a beautiful individual, a person who I concider a strong roll-model for all G/B/L youth.Thankyou.

Name: Hilary
Website: Hilary's Little Home
Referred by: Just Surfed On In
From: Pennsylvania
Time: 1999-01-24 01:18:19
Comments: I love visiting your page. Many of the links are very helpful. I'm at a point where I'm very frustrated so I come on-line alot. Working on my pages helps me vent my feelings (even though not many people seem to care about them or that I like making them). I was told maybe I should write down everything that has happened to me. Including the past emotional abuse, battles with depression, anxiety, low self esteem, low confidence, coming out (to myself and others) and other stuff. I'm still thinking about it (plus I'm a procrastonator and a perfectionist). I updated my webpages. Check them out and let me know what you think. The address is . My other page (about being a lesbian and coming out) is linked there. Thanks. Take care.

Name: Russell
Referred by: Just Surfed On In
From: Michigan
Time: 1999-01-23 20:50:04
Comments: Exceptionally moving story. Good luck with your mission and vision. Peace

Name: Russell L. Bush
Referred by: Just Surfed On In
From: Michigan
Time: 1999-01-23 20:48:57
Comments: Exceptionally moving story. Good luck with your mission and vision. Peace

Name: Lou Ferris
Referred by: Net Search
From: Azusa, CA
Time: 1999-01-23 15:41:30
Comments: Just wanted to thank you for your story. God Bless you.

Name: Don Kearney
Referred by: Net Search
From: Nemarket, Ontario, Canada
Time: 1999-01-22 06:05:01
Comments: I am a gay male of 21 years who has had a difficult, but positive experience of growing up gay. I really enjoyed your story and I feel sadly that this could have been avoided. I am in the process (hopefully!) of starting up a gay and lesbian youth group In my area because there wasn't one when I was younger and when I could have used the support of peers. I am planning on using this story as an example of why support groups and education are needed. Thank you for sharing your story with others, eventhough it's something that I am sure no other parent would like to go through. I hope people take some strength from your words! Yours, Don Kearney

Name: stefanie
Referred by: Yahoo!
From: london ontatio canada
Time: 1999-01-20 21:30:20
Comments: this story is so upsetting. how can we dare call ourselves a "society" when all we do is hate? the assault was unnessessary and the whole story made me cry. i myself am bisexual, and in the process of coming out. reading that story scared me, in honesty, because i can't stand the thought of people attacking me for reasons like sexuality. i was tempted to just forget it, not tell anymore people, because it's scary to think that this could happen. but i've been thinking: maybe we can all help the situation. i mean, if people keep coming out and holding our heads high, they'll have to see that we're just like you. i'm not going to hide any more, out of fear. i am going to be as proud on the outside and in public as i am on the inside. i'm not going to take this ignorance and hate any longer. i'm not changing for anyone. we have to stick together to prevent this from happening again.

Name: stephanie and chere'
Referred by: Yahoo!
From: houston, yx
Time: 1999-01-20 20:03:01
Comments: To the parents of Bill, Reading the story of Bill was not only incredibly sad, but also touching. I hope that in the future crimes such as these can be avoided through acceptance of differences between human beings, because that is what we are, human beings. -chere' To the Parents of Bill, First I want to thank you for sharing your story with the world. The words on the screen touched my heart and hardened my resolve to oppose any type of prejudice. Please know that my thoughts and prayers will be forever with your family. Where ever Bill is I know he is wathching over all of you and always will be. -stephanie

Name: stephanie and chere'
Referred by: Yahoo!
From: houston, yx
Time: 1999-01-20 20:02:27
Comments: To the parents of Bill, Reading the story of Bill was not only incredibly sad, but also touching. I hope that in the future crimes such as these can be avoided through acceptance of differences between human beings, because that is what we are, human beings. -chere' To the Parents of Bill, First I want to thank you for sharing your story with the world. The words on the screen touched my heart and hardened my resolve to oppose any type of prejudice. Please know that my thoughts and prayers will be forever with your family. Where ever Bill is I know he is wathching over all of you and always will be. -stephanie

Name: Karen Murray
Referred by: Just Surfed On In
Time: 1999-01-20 13:32:58
Comments: Thank you for posting this very moving and personal story. As a stringer journalist writing opinion columns that frequently deal with issues of homophobia, I especially appreciate the candor and courage of people who make public the specific and personal pain caused by sexual chauvinism.

Name: gerard o'neill
Website: under construction
Referred by: Just Surfed On In
Time: 1999-01-19 02:34:37
Comments: Hi I can think of nothing more pure than the heart of a child(having 5 children myself) Bills story will im sure give to the many young gay people throughout the world the strength to educate all the homaphobic anti gay crusaders that poison our society. My heart goes out to you and your familyand it is a story that will forever live in my heart. The world and humanity need familys such as you have been blessed with and Bill will im sure be allways with you. Heaven is in the hearts and minds of those that love you,that is where bill is.Love Gerry O'Neill Belfast?Ireland.

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